My dad was cursing the universe; I could feel my whole body going numb, Tomi stood beside me making sure I was okay. "I am sorry for your loss," the surgeon said it in a straight face. The surgeons tried their best, but what if their best wasn't good enough for us? What if they made a small mistake and it cost them a life? And what if the surgeons were not doing their best as their minds were occupied? They say they were sorry but really, are they? They didn't know much of their patients, so they wouldn't really feel how it felt. She was gone. It can't be. I just got her back. How am I going to move on from this? I lost two people in less than two years. This wasn't happening. No. No. No.
"You can see her, when both of you are ready," the surgeon continued. I followed the surgeon into the operating room. Mum was lying on the table in the middle of the room. I took a step and another slowly. I was really scared. The thought of never hearing my mum's voice and never seeing her again. I went towards my mum. Her body was pale and cold. I touched her cheek. "Mum, you are a great mum, and always will be. I wished I could turn back time where I didn't blame you for Bradley's death and just spend time with you. Goodbye, mummy." As I walked out, I cried so hard that Tomi who was standing by the door didn't knew what to do. He held me close to him as I cried. "You can stay at my house if you want to, Seline. I want to make sure you don't do anything stupid." "My dad.." "He can come too."
My dad went into the operating room after I did. When he came out, I couldn't see my dad shedding tears. "Dad.. I want to stay with Tomi for a few nights. I need to be with someone and I really want to be with Tomi." He looked at me and nodded. "Mr. Brook, you can join, if you want to," Tomi offered. "No, I got to work and it is better for me to grieve alone. So sure Seline, go."
I went home to pack my bags and went into Tomi's car. "You can sleep in my bed, I will get an extra mattress and sleep on the floor." "No, I will sleep on the floor," I replied as I placed my bags in one corner of the room. "Seline, just sleep in my bed, okay?" "Okay."
I took a warm bath as I brushed my teeth and went to bed. I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned and tossed and turned and tossed and turned, endlessly, thinking about mum and Bradley. I sure hope that both of them would meet somewhere special. You both will always be in my heart. Without you, my soul wouldn't be complete. And then darkness crawled.
