The lawyer called two days after mum was buried. He asked us to swing by his office as he wanted to talk about what my mum have left for both my dad and I. Dad and I went to his office around 10 a.m. We took for at least 1 hour and a half to sort the possessions my mum left. Dad got her house that she was currently renting out to the Martins and the land that was passed down by her grandfather. According to the will, when I turn 21, I will have the possession of the land.
My mum left me with a letter, her jewelries, her car and her money. I will receive half of it and the other half will be for dad. Both of us left the lawyer office with a frown. We still couldn't believe that mum had died. It was so hard to absorb. Life without mum will be a life without rainbows.
I got home and placed the letter on top of my table. I took a warm bath and read the letter.
Dear Seline,
I know it is hard to live without Bradley as I know both of you are deeply in love, even at such a young age. Losing someone in your life is really hard. It's like you can't breathe anymore. Your world will totally come crashing down hearing that person's name.
Seline, everyone comes and goes, no one can live forever but you can cherished them. I know you blame me for Bradley's death as you said if I came earlier, both of you will be fine and be eating in the restaurant to celebrate your anniversary and of course, Bradley will be by your side, right now. If I have all the power in the world, I would definitely turned back time to change that.
I still remember the day you tried to roller skate, and you fell on your first try. You cried and ran towards me saying that you didn't want to skate anymore. I told you that if you don't get up and try, you never know how fast you can get there. Maybe all it takes is another step to reach your goal, but if you fall and turned your back, you can never take that one step that allows you to reach it. Each steps count. Take your time. Don't hesitate. Be the girl that got up and skate again. Look at you now, you joined skating competitions and won first place. All because you didn't give up hope.
I also know that you shut everyone out from your life and no one can reach your heart because you tend to build walls around it. Seline, you have to stop building your walls, try climbing them now. Who knows, maybe there is after all, another person who will climb your walls too. I believe everyone has someone they rely or lean on but everyone doesn't have one. They have few. And Seline, Bradley is one of them. You have others who are yet to cross paths with you. I love you so much ever since the day I held you. You brought so much joy into my life including happiness. I don't know when you read this is the day you found somewhere in your heart to forgive me, but I always wished you the best. You will always be my little girl and I love you until my final heartbeat.
Lots of love,
Mum.
