Erza POV
To say I was very sad and heartbroken was an understatement.
It felt like my heart is falling apart, pieces by pieces, slowly but surely. The reason was simple- I was in love with a straight girl. She was not a normal girl. She was special, out of ordinary; to me at least. The way she smiles, the way her eyes spark when she's talking about her interest in something. It makes my heart warm and fuzzy, just like a mother bear cuddling with its child.
Unfortunate for me, she was straight. But then again, the spaghetti is straight until it gets hot and wet. So I decided to up my game and being not-so-flirty with her. But she's so oblivious, blind. Though I won't give up that easily because I had expected it to be hard and it was. My best friend, Cana had been encouraging me since the beginning, she gave me a boost of confidence when I'm down. So I tried, tried and tried again but I failed every single time. Lucy, the one who I'm in love with was so obvious to the point that I confessed to her on that spot. I remembered clearly as it was the day she rejected me.
It was a peaceful evening and Lucy had invited me for a movie night at her house. I mentally prepared myself before entering her house, my note was in my pocket that I had just wrote previous night with Cana. The note was all about the topics I will be mentioning during her conversation with Lucy and apparently as Cana said to 'seduce' Lucy, so I did what she said and memorized it. After all I was desperate, so why not?
I knocked the door nervously and the door opened slowly. It revealed Lucy who her brown eyes staring at me and a content smile on her face.
"Hey, Erza!" She cheerfully greeted.
"Hi Lucy," I replied, content to see her cheerful side.
"Come in, I just prepared the popcorn and the movie," she opened the door widely for me to come in. I stepped in and admire her house, it was big and even though I've been here a few times before I still awed at her house. A soft clicked was heard behind me and Lucy directed me to her living room since she knows that I still get lost.
The movie started and we were cuddling. Both of my hands wrapped around her waist and her head rested on my shoulder, a thick blanket covered both of us and the popcorn was left untouched at the small wooden coffee table in front of us. It was a very comfy spot. My eyes were constantly on her throughout the movie, her body heat radiate off of her making my heart thump like crazy and started to get lost in my thoughts, thinking about her.
"I love you" I said unconsciously.
"What?!" She said, shocked to what she just heard. Great, really?! Did I just say that out?!
I sighed, there's no use on hiding now.
I closed my eyes. "I love you" said and this time my words came out more confidently, more louder.
I opened my eyes to see that Lucy was not moving, her eyes seem conflicted. My self-confidence slowly going away and replace it with a big lump of negative thoughts. I anxiously waited for her answer, looking down and playing with my now sweaty hands.
" I love you too" Lucy said. The moment she said that, I quickly lifted my head up to saw a small smile plastered on her face. My stomach keep on doing flips and my heart keep on thumping. She...love me too? Is it real? Is it a dream? I was smiling like crazy but the next sentence crushed me, real hard.
"As a friend of course" she added.
It's like my dream just came true but was stolen just as I had it. My heart that was light a minute ago was now heavy and tears seems to want to come out, but I resisted because I should be strong, it's just a simple innocent crush after all. But why?! Why does it hurt so bad that at that moment I felt like I going to die, I felt that I had nothing left in this stupid, damn world! I was crushed by my crush, ironic right? I chuckled slightly.
"Are you alright?" Lucy asked, worried face plastered on her. Am I alright? Am I alright?! I laugh softly. I think I'm starting to get crazy. Of course I'm not alright, you just rejected me, Lucy. It hurts, it hurts real bad and I want to get out of here, quick.
I let a small croaked smile and nod.
"It's..it's getting late, I should go," I said softly and quickly rushed out to the door, not bothering to hear Lucy's reply. Surprisingly, I know my way out.
I run and run till I reached my apartment. I quickly went inside to my room and locked myself inside. The tears I had not yet shed was now rolling down. Droplets of water drop from my cheeks to the picture that I was holding. It was a picture, a memory of Lucy and I smiling holding a peace sign up in the air. It was one of the happiest moment and I was clutching it tightly, crying. I cried and cried till I was exhausted and even the last thing I remembered before I sleep was Lucy and it will always be, no matter what.
I have never thought that one peaceful evening can turned out to be something bad and today was the worse day of my life. Today is the day that my crush rejected me.
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Hey guys, I'm back and this is a new chapter. Sry for not updating, I have homework and ya know school stuff, so I may not be able to post as much as the last two months
-Shiroyuina
