Crazy

#21

03/18/2017

My feelings were immediately tested by fate.

After our camping trip, I was so sure something has changed between Mika and I. The need to be around her became stronger. So strong that I spent every time I had texting her, calling her, or seeing her. And physically, I think we kissed less than before. Yet, I didn't mind. Not so much. Because gone were the kisses based on physical attraction alone. The kisses we've shared since then were full of emotions that even a short slow and tender kiss was enough to leave me breathless. More importantly, I actually craved skin to skin contact more like holding her hand and hugging her from behind. I didn't mind not kissing her as long as my hand rested on her thigh or on her back or she had her arm around me in a loose hug. I enjoyed cuddling with her.

Shit. Admitting to myself that I liked her opened up the gate and I realized how deep my feelings for her already were.

I was so screwed. But I could no longer stop myself. No rational thought, no guilt, no thoughts of Den could stop me from wanting to be beside Mika. Fuck. So screwed. So so so screwed.

And because fate was playing its cruel tricks on me again, I stood Mika up that night...for Den.

Well, not really for Den. For Team Besh. And it was all Ella's fault.

Our afternoon practice started early and ended early and I told Mika I would take her out for dinner. Because I wanted to. I just wanted to.

But before I could go to her, I received a call from Ella asking me to drop by immediately because she needed some kind of help. And I couldn't disregard Ella. I figured I could go see and help her before dinner, I just had to make it fast.

I texted Mika to tell her nonetheless.

To: Babe 💚

Babe, I have to go to Ella's lang sandali. She needs help with something daw. Sorry. See you the soonest! 😘

I hit send before I could change my mind and erase that emoji. I still blushed though.

From: Babe 💚

Sure, Babe. No problem. See yah! 😘😘😘

I felt giddy at her text and I hoped that those emojis meant more kisses for me.

When I got to Ella's house and parked my car, I rang the door bell hastily.

Ella opened the door looking sad.

"Ly, pwede bang mahiram ang phone mo. Please."

Ella wasn't the kind of person to get sad so I gave her my phone. She wouldn't be able to open it anyway.

And in an instant, she smirked and hid my phone in her pocket.

"Oks na, Besh. Tuloy ka na. No phones allowed ngayon sa inyo ni Den."

I grabbed Ella by her arm when she was about to turn around. "What?"

"Surprise Team Besh's night out ngayon, Ly. And wala kaming paki kung may issues pa kayo ni Den. Deal with it. Bawal ang phones," Ella answered with a raised brow.

"Pots, biglaan naman! Di niyo naman ako sinabihan. Di ako pwede ngayon!" I exclaimed.

She squinted her eyes at me and crossed her arms.

"Surprise nga, eh. Pero tinanong naman namin si Tita at Tita Vania kung may sched ka, wala naman daw, ah."

"I made plans with someone else already, Pots."