anonymous - tracob

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as the words left his lips troye surprised himself, he had admitted to his girlfriend that he was in love with her brother. troye looked between the two, shock on their faces.

"as a friend, i'm not gay babe," he says to melody catching himself. jacob frowns his lips curling between his teeth. troye shakes his head looking at sage who was silent throughout the whole thing.

"fuck you, troye!" jacob yells rushing out of the room with a slam of the door. sage runs after him, leaving melody and troye alone in the room that seemed to be getting smaller and smaller.

he heard the muffled voices of sage and jacob arguing in the hallway, he couldn't hear their words but he knew they were talking about him.

"you don't just love him as a friend," melody blurts out, sitting in the chair beside his bed that was once occupied by sage. "you are in love with him, and i'm not mad. i can't control who you fall for, that would make me such a horrible person. wanna know something?" she questions looking towards the stunned man, who's mouth was ajar and his eyes wide.

"he loves you too,"

troye looked at her, shaking his head, "no he doesn't. i'm not gay,"

melody allows a laugh to bubble from her lips, "sweetheart stop lying to yourself it won't make the lie come true, it'll just destroy you," she says her hazel eyes that resembled jacob's stared into his blue ones, "it's okay to be gay, it doesn't change anything about you. you are still the same troye sivan mellet to me and everyone else. your sexuality does not determine who you are nor define you. i know we live in a world of hatred but it's better to be free than being someone you're not. you should be loving someone and not afraid of it," she says her words made troye choke out sobs, she always knew what to say when troye didn't know what to do. and that was one thing he loved about her.

"don't let the label gay, define you just be you and never let anyone but you down," melody was crying by now, tears falling down her face, as she pulled troye into a tight hug where he quickly wraps his arms around her waist breathing in the vanilla scent that he always used to love back when things weren't so confusing.

he pulls away, wiping her tears away once the two of them had no more tears to cry. he laughed to himself finding this situation quite funny and almost as if it was being written as a book.

"what's so funny?"

"this, us, everything that's happened. it's nearly as if we're a nicolas sparks novel," he chuckles softly. chuckles emit from melody's lips as an agreement.

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"jacob i swear to fucking god if you hurt him!" sage yells the two had been kicked out for disturbing the other patients in the hospital, now they were outside, jacob's lips around a cigarette as he left nervous settle into his bones.

a smoke cloud swims in the air looming around the two till it disappeared into the sky. "i'm trying my fucking best sage to keep that from happening, but the more i sit around and watch him pretend he doesn't feel the same as me i have to do something. yet his dumbass doesn't see that," jacob laughs bitterly flicking ashes in the pavement.

"if you love him do something about it more than yelling at him. he may seem like an all put together man but he's a mess inside," sage says a sigh emitting from her lips. jacob frowns taking another drag from the deathstick, a cloud looming around him again.

a slight chuckle falls from his lips, as he flicks the cigarette at the ground crushing it under his boots. "i want to scream i love him at him when he's being an idiot. but i can't do that, i can't love him," he says softly looking at the night's streets that buzzed with people, "i can't hurt the both of us."

sage frowns at him, her hands slipping into her sweater. "you're hurting either way,"

jacob didn't want to admit but she was right. either way the two would be hurting, rather he tells him the truth or keeps it from him.

"i can't tell him sage," he says looking towards the girl who looked nearly identical to troye. "not now at least,"

sage nods understandingly, walking towards the entrance of the hospital. jacob follows, walking side by side with her.

melody was sat in the waiting room alone, everyone likely was back with troye. jacob was ready for her to be anger with him and to yell at him for being stupid. but she didn't yell at him, she instead pulled him into a tight embrace holding onto her older brother tightly.

"take care of him,"

melody pulls out of the hug sitting back down, jacob smiles at his sister who smiled back at him squeezing his hand.

the time above the clock read 12:15 am which jacob groans stretching his body out on the small chair that hurt his back like hell.

he couldn't sleep at all, his mind to preoccupied by the thoughts of troye running through his head. he also couldn't sleep because of how uncomfortable this chair was, but that wasn't his biggest concern nor did he really care.

with wobbly feet he stands, walking down the corridor to the patients rooms. he didn't have to sneak past the nurse at the front desk too occupied by the hot doctor standing dangerously close to her. jacob rolls his eyes.

when he is in front of the door, he places his hand on the handle trying to be as quiet as he possibly could be.

when he was finally in the room, the stupid door making a creaking sound each time he tried to be quiet opening it. he sat in the chair beside his bed. troye was sound asleep soft snores coming from his lips. jacob couldn't help but giggle finding the man adorable even when he was sleeping and unaware of a lot of things.

he picked at the loose ends of his jeans, nervous to be here with troye in this hospital. he didn't like seeing troye laying in a hospital bed, it possibly being his fault for being here.

"i'm sorry troye," jacob whispers into the darkness of the room. the sleeping body only stirs not seeming to have been disturbed by his presence. jacob stood up about to leave when a small dainty fingered man grabs a hold of his hand.

"stay," he says his eyes still closed. jacob falls into his touch, sitting back down but only to be pulled again. "cuddle me?"

jacob couldn't refuse the ocean eyed boy, he didn't care if they were only going to be friends for now, all he cared about was making troye happy and being near the man.

jacob crawls into the bed beside troye avoiding the wires that were hooked up to him.

"night, princess." jacob whispers into his chocolate brown locks of curls.

"night, babe."

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ashlee here's another update ;)

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