Collection of the dark days

It hurts

He left
It was a while ago now
Things were bad for a while
Arguments about small things
You got pretty angry
You yelled as much as each other
And it hurt

You see him everyday
With her
Laughing, smiling, happy
Your replacement
You wonder if he says to her
The same he said to you
With that look, that smile
And it hurts

You smile with your friends
You ignore it, ignore him
You push it deep, deep down
Pretend not to need him
Pretend not to miss him
That you're fine
And it hurts

You scald yourself for looking
Even a single glance, one peek
Floods you with memories
Sometimes triggers occur in conversation
They pour into your mind
The good things
Forever & always
All the times that never were
And it never stops hurting