drugs ♕ joshler

t h i r t y s i x

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"do you e-ever get that f-feeling?" tyler asked, more like whisper in a questioning tone.

"what feeling?" josh replied, eyes drifting from tyler to where tyler was staring.

"where you've been i-in confinement f-for so long that when y-you get out you f-feel free?"

joshua wasn't about to lie, "to be honest, i haven't. i've been privileged since i was born." josh leaned his head against tyler's shoulder. "why?"

tyler leaned his head against josh's, "because i-i can feel it now."

joshua smiled, watching tyler's little fingers move around in his hand, in thought josh figured.

"my p-parents never liked me," tyler said, a bit of his voice cracking from the tears swelling up in his eyes. anything he thinks about too intensely does this to him. "no one r-really did. i-i didn't like m-myself."

josh felt a tear fall onto his hand that was holding tyler's, his arms around his waist.

josh brought his lips to tyler's neck, a sweet kiss that was comforting, telling him 'i'm here for you.'

"t-the only reason they c-care now is because i-i'm missing."

a bird chirped loudly, bringing tyler's eyes up to it, right over the sunset under the waterfall, sitting atop a tree. tyler's eyes watered, his lips bitten and the side bleeding. "but at l-least you like m-me. t-that's all i want."

josh wrapped his arms around tyler, bringing his hands with him. as if tyler was being hugged by josh and himself.

"i don't just like you, tyler. i love you."