Letting go~ g.d

Hurt memories; ch.16

Grayson's POV

Three days later~

Well three days later from elina and I hooking up and Ethan still hasn't said a word to me.

I mean, I get why he was pissed but it's not like me and Ariana were official...

Shut up Grayson, you and Ariana are definitely official.

I haven't even talked to Ariana in three days. She called me, texted and everything but I never responded.

I feel too ashamed.

I paced around my room, not knowing what to do.

Every time I see Ariana my stomach flips and I haven't felt that in years.

She made me feel worthy, like someone could love me again.

Whereas when I'm with elina all of those hopeless thoughts come back from the time we broke up.

What she did was unforgivable, which made me feel more and more of an asshole because I slept with her.

I started remembering the night we broke up and how hurt I was.

I cried for hours, days at a time.

I remembered it like it was yesterday.
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The night was cold and wet. Rain was pouring down on me as I stepped out of the car.

I began to head up the steps of her house.

Every step I took felt like everything was spinning.

My heart was beating out of my chest.

I knocked on the door impatiently.

I needed this to be over. I needed us to be over.

I heard a door creak open. I looked up to see Elina's smiling face.

"Hey baby what are you doing here so late? It's wet outside come in!" She insisted.

I shook my head no. "Elina I know what you did."

Her eyes went wide. "Look-"

"All I can ask is why? She was my fucking mother elina!"

She began to sob. "I had to Grayson! You don't know what even happened!

"Don't even try and reason with me Elina, I loved you but I will never ever forgive you."

"Gray please!"

I pulled my hood over my head and looked up into her eyes one last time.

Tears were brimming my eyes as she pleaded me to stay.

"Goodbye Elina." I whispered.

And with that I turned around and left.
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I wiped my eyes, feeling the salty tears hit my rough skin. I started getting angry with myself.

I ran up to my mirror, looking at myself.

Your a monster Grayson.

No one could ever love you.

You hurt people.

You won't even go back to see your dying father.

"Fuck!" I yelled as I punched my wall.

Tears were streaming down my face as I slumped onto the ground.

I felt myself loose control.

"Grayson?"

I looked up and saw her.

Ouch aw poor gray;(

IM REALLY EXCITED FOR THIS NEXT CHAPTER GUYS YAY

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