The Way It Is (A Pierce the Veil Fanfic) *EDITING*

Chapter 20 - Brace for Impact

~~Vic's POV~~

Its 10 am. I wasn't able to fall back asleep. Not after...

I sighed as I pulled myself from my bed, standing and stretching my muscles out. I tugged on a thin sweatshirt, sweatpants and a beanie, walking myself over to the mirror. I sigh again taking in my own reflection.

I look like hell.

I feel like hell.

My eyes have bags under them and my hair is a tangled mess. I just look plain awful. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I might get dumped today so..

There's that.

The only thing about my appearance that doesn't make me cringe is the ring on my finger. I bring my hand up and spin the ring on my finger, a small, half-smile creeping across my lips. It quickly fades to a frown when the sound of a door in the hall opening snaps me back to reality.

I take a deep breath and head toward the door. I hesitate for a moment before growing a pair and slowly opening the god damn door.

I peer out to see Jaime and Tony standing there about to head downstairs. We stare silently at each other for a few seconds before Mike joins us. We all just... stand there. Not saying a word.

Its awkward as fuck.

One of us has to make a move so I guess it might as well be me. So, I do. I look at the ground and start my way downstairs wordlessly.

Fucking coward.

But it works, as they all follow my steps and meet me in the living room. I sit on the coffee table and Mike sits beside me, with Tony and Jaime sitting on the couch across from us. I hold back a tiny smile at the thought of how badly we need chairs.

Then, the silence breaks.

"We really should invest in chairs. The coffee table shouldn't have asses on it constantly." Jaime states, half serious and half joking.

We all chuckle lightly at his antics, knowing full well it was only to ease the tension.

It didn't really. But it did break the ice.

"Is there still a we?" Mike asks suddenly in a timid, pleading tone, causing me to snap my eyes to him in slight surprise. He's always been a pretty straight-to-the-point kind of guy. It's a blessing and a curse.

I hold my breath in anticipation for the response and look to the Sexicans sitting opposite me. Both of whom are wearing sad expressions and I swear, I can feel my heart stop beating.

This is it Vic.

Brace for impact.

"I..." Hime paused, sighing. "Fuck it. I'm still in. Don't get me wrong, I'm still bitter about it. But it's been nearly 7 years. I've known for a long while and have moved past it in my own time." He stops for a split second before continuing. "I'm also sorry... Sorry for the way everything happened last night. I should've dealt with... my 'family situation', differently. Instead of getting trashed and blowing up like an idiot."

"You have nothing to apologize for. I'm the one that should be apologizing. I shouldn't have kept pushing when I could tell you didn't wanna talk about what happened with your mom. I had no right acting the way I did yesterday." Mike says, smiling apologetically at Jaime, who returns it, nodding lightly.

"I'm sorry too. I'm so fucking sorry... For everything... Danielle she... She meant nothing and I instantly felt regret waking up the next morning. I never wanted to sleep with her, I was just so drunk and curious and-" I was cut off when Tony, for the first time, snapped his eyes up to glare at me.

"Curious? You were curious? What the fuck does that mean, Vic?" He spat. I gulped.

"W-Well..." I choked out then sighed. I might as well just say it, right?

"I'm always on the... receiving end. I guess... Being as fucked up as I was, I grew curious as to what it would be like to... give, instead." I felt my face turning red. We've done some pretty kinky things in bed but, for some reason, talking about this is incredibly embarrassing.

"So..." Tony searches my eyes. I don't know what he's looking for. "You wanted to Zeus it up and put your dick in something. That's it? That's the reason? The real reason?" He asks firmly, still staring into my soul.

"There's no excuse for what I did. But, thinking back to that night, that was the only thought in my mind." I answer honestly.

"...Still doesn't make it okay." He mumbles, looking away from me. I don't respond. It's not my place. I know it doesn't 'make it okay'. Nothing will. Ever.

"And you?" Tone turns his attention to Mike.

"I don't have any reason. I don't have any excuse. I got trashed... so trashed... it just... happened. I know how fucking stupid that sounds but I don't know what else to say. Other than, I'm so sorry. I would do anything to take back that night. I love you all so much. I never wanted to hurt you. Alysha meant and means nothing to me." Mike pleads. I can tell he is also being sincere.

Jaime just continues to listen silently. He's made his peace with our infidelity, I suppose.

"Why would you both hide it? You had plenty of times in the past 7 fucking years to come clean and you didn't." Tony raises his voice a little before softly adding. "You just... fucking didn't."

"We were stupid... We were afraid it would just cause unnecessary pain. It meant absolutely nothing, so we hid it." Mike states.

"It was obviously the wrong move and we know that. I'm so sorry." I continue to apologize, unable to read his expression.

Please... I love you. I beg in my mind.

He doesn't love you though. Not anymore.

"I... I don't know if... How am I supposed to trust you guys?" He's on the verge of tears.

"Tony, I'm begging. Please... Please... I love you so much. I need you so fucking much..."

"I love you too. Please, let us make it up to you. Please say you'll give us another chance." Mike chokes back tears as he speaks.

He contemplates for a moment. I desperately search his features looking for any indication of what he is going to say.

He sighs.

"I... I love you guys too. Too fucking much..." He more states to the void than to anyone in particular before he continues. "Was that the only time?"

"Yes." Mike and I reply quickly at the same time, both sounding anxious and desperate.

"And... You promise it will never happen again?"

"Yes." We do it again. Then it clicks.

"Wait... So, this means...?" I ask hopefully.

He shakes his head a bit, looking at the floor. "It means that it happened a long time ago but I'm not over it... it means..." He bites his lip, looking up to meet my gaze and then flicks it to meet Mike's. "I have two fiancés on probation. No more lies. No more hiding shit. I'm not having any of that." He smiles a small smile. He still looks a little sad but that's understandable.

Mike and I however, almost jump out of our skin in happiness. We both have wide smiles stretched across our faces. In a matter of seconds, we are all wrapped in a tight group hug as a string of 'thank yous', 'I love yous', and 'you won't regret its' fly from me and my brother. We all pull away, smiles on all our faces now, and take our seats again.

Guess... We should start with those rules Tony set now. My smile falls and I shut my eyes.

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A/N: ooo look cliffhanger. I've been doing that. Huh. Feelin like a tease I guess.

Heh heh

also- ima put song recs in here now cuz hot damn. music amiright?

Look up dis song!- Disappear (Remember When)- Issues

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