Had I Known How To Save A Life

You're Just As Bad As The Others

Im so so sorry I have been so busy and Monday was my birthday and just I'm sorry. Thank you so much for all the reads I asked for 200 and I have almost 400 its amazing I love you all. Oh and by the way Brooke has conversations with herself. What she tells herself will be in italics and quotes.

*Nialls P.O.V.*

"Brooke seems nice." I said cheerily, from the couch. I could feel the glares coming from the kitchen, you see, I made them clean up, oops.

"Babe!" Gabi yelled.

"Yeah?"

"I did my share get your ass in here." Pushy pushy I thought as I got up and trudged to the kitchen. As soon as I dragged my self into the room someone burst through the front door.

"Stupid bitches..." I heard Lou mutter. He walked into to the kitchen holding up a hunched over and obviously in pain Brooke.

"Call Paul.." He said

"Wh-"

"Call. Paul." Not gonna argue with that stern face Mr. Grumpy Pants. I called Paul and gave the phone to Louis. It seems they were attack by some fans something that Lizzy Gabi and Jazzy get a lot, in fact it happens so often that I kind of forgot it could even affect her.

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*Lizzys P.O.V.*

Poor girl what a great first impression of the lads fan base. Looks like there's no going out tonight. Girls night in maybe?

"Girls! In the room, we need to talk." I called and they all filed in as ordered except Andi :( god I love them and I want to get to know Andi!

"Andi doll! You can come too!" She scurried in like the last duckling afraid of getting separated from mum. She is such a sweetheart.

"Okay we have some business to take care of." I stated.

"Girls night in this week?" Gabi asked hopefully, she always hated going out.

"Weeeeelll." I said dragging the word along just to see her bounce. "I was thinking since the incident .... why not? Lets vote. All in favor of girls night in?" Everyone raised there hand even Andi! "Great its decided. Oh and remember since its a night in...."

"Circle...." We all said seriously  trying to keep a straight face before collapsing into a fit of giggles while Andi watched us like we were crazy a little smile playing on her lips. I really hope she opens up to us.

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*Brookes P.O.V.*

Great people that don't even know me hate me. I thought I could get away from it. Its follows me where ever I go. What the hell is wrong with me.

"Everything, you killed your sister, its all your fault. Why did you have to be so selfish. You could of saved her you worthless thing. Slit your wrist. You shouldn't of told Louis you're just putting him into your problems. He doesn't care...."

"Lou,?" I say my voice shaking. "Can I talk  to you...alone?"

"Sure love-or-Brooke...sorry.." He led me into his room and I sat down refused to look him in the eyes.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry I dragged you into my psychotic head. I should of just said I was fine and left. Im a terrible person. I'm gonna leave I cant let my problems drag you down. I cant be responsible for another person suffering I'm so sorry, don't worry about me. Don't care about me please." I said quickly and bluntly as tears blurred my vision and ran down my cheeks.

"How many times has he seen you cry? You're so weak."

"Brooke, Brooke look at me." I refused to turn my head, I feel so horrible.

"You could never burden me with your problems. I chose to go looking for you. Since you left school was so scared and worried about you. I could never not worry about you. You are the most amazing person I have ever met. Your problems aren't dragging me down, in fact they keep me going they give me a reason. I want fix them. I care about you."

"Louis, you shouldn't care about me... Im a monster. I'm the reason my sister suffered. Im the reason she's dead. I could've told. Do you know how many times my parents asked if she was okay-no I cant I wont tell you anymore. Im not gonna hurt you." Im balling by now but my voice is still strong.

"See.. you're crying again. You are weak. To weak to tell anyone that your sister isn't happy. To weak to stop her, to dumb to realize you're killing everyone around you..." I felt two arms wrap around me and there's nothing I can do but collapse into them. Why does he have this effect on me? Why does he care cant he see Im just a murderer.

"You're just as bad as the others."

I'm sorry its short. But i have writers block soo yeah. I have a challenge for you! I'm asking for 500 reads i figured that's not a lot since I got from under 200 to almost 400 last time and please five comments? Oh and also I want to get 27 votes I have 23 now just to let you know. Thank you all so so much every read is appreciated love ya!!!