Behind Closed Doors // Lashton

Chapter Twenty-Eight

BCD Chapter Twenty-Eight

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LUKE POV

**5pm, May 19th**

I should be nervous. I should be having an anxiety attack. I shouldn't be this calm. Not with the first concert since we came out starting in two hours. I mean, I am nervous. I'm always a little nervous, but I should be super nervous.

"Are you two busy?" Calum pops into the dressing room.

"Not really." I say. He sits down next to me, and I can see how bummed he seems.

"I don't think Michael likes me as much as I like him." Calum says to us.

"I thought that was something you already knew?" I say, a little confused.

"No." Cal shakes his head.

"Cal he definitely likes you, I've seen the way he looks at you." Ashton says.

"All he ever wants to do is make out or have sex. He doesn't like being coupley with me." Cal says.

"That's tough." I say.

"I don't know Cal, it's up to you." Ash says to me.

"Why doesn't he like me that way?" Cal asks us.

"I don't know Cal. Why don't you ask him? Maybe he does and just doesn't know how to show it. It could be that he isn't comfortable with all that stuff." I say.

"Luke could be right." Ashton says.

"Maybe. I'll just talk to him about it. Thanks anyways." Cal says, getting up.

"No problem mate." Ash says.

"Let us know what happens." I say. Cal nods and leaves the room.

"Are you ready for tonight?" Ashton asks me. Ah, there is the nervousness. I was wondering where it was.

"I guess, I just hope it goes ok." I say.

"Why shouldn't it?" Ashton asks me.

"Because we have time to talk to the fans in the middle of the concert and I know what they're going to ask." I say.

"So? Didn't I tell you I have your back?" He asks me.

"Yeah, that helps me later when I need it, not now." I say. I notice that I somehow hurt his feelings by saying that.

"So you don't need me right now." He says. I hope he realizes that's not what I meant before I start crying.

"Oh my god. Baby I'm sorry. That's not what you meant. Come here." He says to me, wrapping his arms around me. I hide in his arms and let him gently rock me.

"You're still scared, huh?" He quietly asks me. I nod my head against his chest.

"As much as before?" He asks next.

"No." I say.

"That's good. You shouldn't be." Ash says, kissing the top of my head. I lift my head to look at him, and close them moments later when he connects our lips.

"I wish I could protect you from your own thoughts." He says to me, staring into my eyes.

"So do I." I say back.

"Do I not at all?" He asks.

"You do some." I say. A small smile graces his lips and his eyes shine with a new thought.

"I'm gonna hug you more." He says to me. I instantly smile, feeling a wave of happiness spread through my body. I drape my arms around his neck and connect our lips again. I turn my head a little, finding a better angle. The door slams open, making us part to look. Calum comes in with tears streaming down his face. He sits down silently next to me, and I let go of Ash to face him.