Behind Closed Doors // Lashton

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-One (pilots XD)

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ASHTON POV

**1pm, May 16th**

I press the pillow harder against my face to try to stop the pounding in my head. It doesn't help my migraine, but it soaks up my tears.

"Hey Ash, what's wrong?" Calum asks, apparently having entered the room. My eyes feel like they're going to pop out of my skull, there's that much pressure in my head.

"It doesn't involve you." I say.

"I know, but I still want to help." He says.

"I told Luke I want us to come out so we can have a normal relationship, but he doesn't get it. He protects his stupid ego so much." I say, moving the pillow from my face.

"You've got to look at it from his perspective too Ash." Cal says to me.

"I am! He's scared because he doesn't want his feelings hurt and he protects his feelings with his ego, and he doesn't want that damaged, so he doesn't want to come out!" I exclaim. My head pounds again, so I rub my eyes to push the pressure back.

"I guess you are looking at it from his perspective a bit. When he gets scared though he isn't thinking about his ego, he's actually thinking about his feelings. How would you feel if someone started calling you names for no reason?" Calum asks me.

"You're not actually asking me that, right?" I ask back.

"Oh, forgot. You knew why he did that though." Calum says.

"He'd know why he'd be called names too! It's no different! I managed it perfectly fine because I had him to fall back on. He has me to fall back on, but he's too egotistical to do that!" I snap, my eyes watering again.

"Hey, it's ok. Why don't you try talking to him when you don't have a migraine?" Calum suggests.

"He won't! He'll pull his sad little puppy eyes like he always does, and I always fall for it!" I groan, tears streaking down my face.

"You legitimately hate his ego." Cal notices.

"He's an asshole with his ego! He treats me like I'm nobody! I'm not nobody! I'm his boyfriend! He makes me feel like I'm nobody to him." I sniffle. Cal climbs on top of me and hugs me.

"Ash, I didn't know you felt like that. I'd never want you to feel like that." Luke appears in the doorway.

"I told you and you told me to stop talking! I have a migraine because of stress! This is majorly stressful, but you won't fucking do anything!" I yell at Luke. Cal gets up and glares at Luke.

"You told him to stop talking?" Cal asks him.

"No I didn't! I told him to pause because he was holding his head in pain." Luke says.

"If he wasn't done then you shouldn't tell him to stop. That's why he's mad at you, idiot." Calum says to him. I curl into a ball and want to bang my head off the wall. So I do. I move and hit my head against the wall. Then I discover the wall is really cold, so I press my face against it.

"Ash, I'm really sorry for upsetting you this much." Luke says to me. He sounds so, so sincere, but I will not give in that easily.

"He wants more than an apology Luke. Give him a fucking answer." Calum says. I can literally feel Luke squirm.

"I'll set it up for Friday, today's Wednesday." Luke says.

"He'll talk to you again on Friday then, go away." Calum says. I like having Cal talk for me.