Deal With It

Falling For Drake

I woke up in Drake’s bed, he’d been sleeping on the couch because I didn’t want him in the same bed, but he had informed me we once slept in the same bed in this very room. I didn’t want him to try something or worse. For me to try something.

I sat in bed a while seeing that Drake was still sleeping. I sighed getting up and going to my duffle bag I hadn’t looked in it since I got here I pulled things out mostly clothes and things like sketch books and pencils. In a sketch book I found a letter, I was about to open it when I saw that Drake was waking up I began to stuff my underwear and bras back into the bag along with the letter. He got up and I managed to get the last of my undergarments into the bag before he could see them. He looked over at me as I had the sketch book in my hands flipping over the pages seeing what else I had in here.

“You up already?” He rubbed his eyes.

“I just got up,” I answered.

“Are you going to use the bathroom first or can I?” He asked.

“Go ahead, I’ll wait,” I said which was weird because I’d usually run for it, but this morning I had other things in mind. Once he had the door closed I went through the duffel bag looking for the letter I heard the crumpling of paper in my hand and pulled it out and opened it. It was from Drake to me. I didn’t remember getting this, I opened it and began to read.

(If you don’t want to read Drake’s letter again skip it.)

Dear Nekoda,

By now you know that I have gone because Danny would have told you. Honestly I write this to you not knowing if you’d even go to my house to look for me you wouldn’t believe how many times I wondered what if you didn’t care enough to go look for me while writing this. But if you are reading this I would’ve liked to tell you that I wished the best for you and Brandon, but I can’t bring myself to lie because I hate it. I should have known you’d pick him, but like I have said when it comes to winning you over I am naïve as ever. I would have liked to stay with you, but now you have Brandon so I don’t plan to visit anymore and I don’t think I’ll keep in contact with anyone from school or home. Just wanted to write to tell you one thing, it’s funny how it’s even hard to say on paper, but here goes nothing; I love you. I know it’s strange I never thought myself telling any girl this not even you, but I realized that what I feel for you isn’t lust, but more like an obsession your in my mind every second. I hope to clear my mind on this trip, you know that I wondered when driving away that day from you and Brandon what would have happened if I had driven back to tell you how much I loved you. What would’ve you done? Too late now I’m long gone.

Love,

Drake Link

I frowned, when had I gotten this? He’d probably given it to someone to give to me after he’d left, but I didn’t get it, he hoped me and Brandon were happy if I was right I had gotten together with Brandon after Drake had left. What kind of stupid misunderstanding had occurred that had made Drake leave in the first place that I hadn’t bothered to set straight?

I had been very quiet with Drake since I moved in five days ago, cautious with him, afraid to trust him even when he was the one to wake me up from all my nightmares even before I began to scream, when he was there to comfort me every time I remembered anything from my past such as beatings, a call from my mother and such. He was there for me yet I couldn’t bring myself to fully trust him. That reminded me my mother had called the second day since I was here, she said she’d be calling every Friday and today was a Wednesday and next week would be the last of summer break before we had to get back to school again. The guys had come over once since we got here and had reassured me that they would be there and I had nothing to worry about, but it still scared me to know what would happen.