I Hate Him, I Love Him

Chapter 21

            Hassan's point of view

I have been overthinking about Syra's behaviour. I can't even sleep in peace knowing she hates me now. Why does she hate me? Where's all that love she had for me? No...this can't happen. I can't imagine losing her. How can she ask me to get out of her life? As if its that easy.... Does she not understand the intensity of love I have for her? I am going to fix all this, I am gonna get my Syra back.

After two days we are invited to a get together at Syra's house. I know this is my chance...

I am sitting and waiting in the hall with all the families. Waiting for Syra to appear infront of me. She takes a while to arrive. But when she does, I have this weird attraction for her. I don't know if it's me but she looks absolutely amazing to me whenever I see her. Regardless of her strange attitude...

I am looking at her, hoping she will look at me for once. But she doesn't. Infact she comes in and says salaam very confidently and sits down with the ladies. I can see her from a distance. And she looks so chill. And I can't tolerate it. I can't see her acting as if I don't exist. As if nothing has happened between us. Like fine I don't mind her being angry at me but this ignoring thing is driving me crazy and I can't tolerate it. How can she do this to me?

I keep looking at her, the way she confidently speaks to everyone. The way she makes eye contact with everyone but me...I see her stand up and go out of the hall. And I follow her excusing myself from others for picking up a call.

I search for her and she is in the dinning room, standing near the table, decorating the food that will be soon served. This place reminds of the time I saw her here and teased her.

Looking at her all busy and concentrating makes me so attracted to her. I forget about everything and walk towards her to tease her. When I am behind her and near her, I lean in close to her to tease her, expecting her to blush and become all shy.

I was fucking stupid for expecting this....

Because she very boldly looks at me and raises an eyebrow and without any hesitation puts a hand on my chest and slowly pushes me away from her, at a distance. As if she is the most chill person in the world and as if nothing really bothers her.

"How many times do I have to remind you, that I am not that old Syra you can use and play around with." She says firmly and I can see she is gritting her teeth.

"What?! Use and play around? Syra what are you saying?"

She breathes in anger and frowns.

"What have I done just tell me for once? I have never used you or played around with you. I can't even imagine hurting you and you're saying-" She interrupts me.

"Wow Hassan Shah. I didn't know you were such a good actor too."

"Syra I am serious! You're angry that I didn't contact you when I was in the academy right? I tried so much Syra believe me, I called you, I-"

"Shut up. Just shut up." She says coldly.

I remain silent.

"Is that what they teach you in the academy? How to be good liars? Ha! You think I am gonna believe all this bullshit hahaha seriously what the eff are you even?" The way she degrades me like that shocks me.

"Why do you think I will lie to you?" I ask in a serious tone.

"I dunno cuz you're a fucking asshole and a player just like your typical army fellows!" She scowls.

"Did someone say something to you about me?" I wonder if someone created a misunderstanding about me.

"I don't need people to tell me shit, I am good at judging people myself."