I Hate Him, I Love Him

Chapter 31

Syra's P.o.V:

He pushes me abruptly on the bed and he gives me that glare that terrifies me. What is he going to do now?

I close my eyes tightly as the scene of my father hitting me comes back and I can feel all the pain that I experienced then, coming at me right now. He is gonna hit me ruthlessly just like how my father did.... or worse what if he....

I was trembling and didn't open my eyes until I heard him step away and say: "You're gonna be locked up in here. Now I will see how you escape. You wanted all this didn't you? This is what you fucking get for doing what you did." He says furiously as he grits his teeth and leaves my room and bangs the door behind him, locking it from outside.

I seriously couldn't understand what just happened. I became so frightened that it took me a while to process everything that happened...

Thankfully he just left me but he locked me...I don't know how he's going to treat me now...probably like a prisoner. A helpless prisoner...

I can't believe what he did to me. I never imagined Hassan could become this furious...and to the point where he hurts me...physically and emotionally? I knew it....behind all that niceness he shows...he's just a ruthless asshole.

"I will never let you ruin my honour and respect."

"Is there anyone who you can call your own?"

"You have no one you can go to."

"Where would you go huh?"

"I will hurt you mercilessly."

"I will shatter you."

"There will be no one worse than me."

His words kept repeating in my head and were driving me crazy. How could he say all this to me? I remembered the moment he gripped my wrist so painfully and it hurt like hell...even now it hurts...knowing he could physically hurt me...is breaking me inside.

It's like I don't even know who he is. His behaviour was so unexpected... It's like he's a monster. I am not gonna lie but I am afraid of him now...

I am laying in my bed trembling and shaking with fear because thanks to him I was reminded of all the hitting I got from my father. I cried and sobbed and covered my mouth from sobbing and crying out loud. I wanted to scream and cry out so loud... But I was scared he would come back...he would hit me and beat me up...or force me to...

No...stop...don't think this way...it's alright, it's over...

I kept reassuring myself.

Over? How is it over? I am locked up with a furious beast here, how can it be over...? I know for sure that his anger will not go away. That he'll hurt me the next day or who knows from now on? I am scared...so scared that I don't know what to do...

I can feel my legs becoming numb and I remember this feeling. The same feeling I went through years back when I used to get anxiety. It's back again and I don't know how to handle it. I have no hope...my inner voice can't reassure or comfort me anymore like it used to...

Hassan how could you do this to me?

I spent the rest of the night crying and overthinking until I somehow managed to sleep.

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Hassan's P.o.V:

I couldn't sleep the whole night in peace knowing she tried to run away like that. How dare she take this step? I knew my control was gone and my anger had taken control of myself completely. But whoever would have been in my place would not tolerate what she did...