Imagines

Invisible

So I'm gonna post a really sad depressing one for two reasons. One I don't have a lot of safe imagines and life isn't all happy so gotta have some sad. Two I've been going through a lot and this is how I let out my feelings without taking it out on anyone. Also listen to this song before reading. This is what I'm feeling 😐
So enjoy
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Your POV

*Writing in Diary

March 6 2017. 12:24. Well the day isn't even over and it's already shit. Yes Mondays are always the worst but today is beyond any regular Monday. I guess I'm a toilet because everyone feels the need to shit on me, even though I'm so nice to everyone. Guess it doesn't matter...👌🏻

I know I deserve better but honestly it doesn't feel like it. I'm so confused on what I did to deserve all this. I try and try but no one seems to care. No one would even notice if I was gone... Should I just stop? Should I no longer care? Should I end the pain? Should I keep on a smile for everyone else?

Some days I think it would be easier if I could turn off all my emotions, be free, not care. At least I could feel better for maybe a millisecond.. be free of all the lies. Be free from all the hate. I don't know why I even care at this point, you obviously don't.. but i can't let you in, I won't let you see how I'm slowly dying inside. No one will ever know, I but in a smile as they turn their back...

Why lie to me. I'll find out the truth one day, some how some way. Don't tell me things you don't mean, don't make me feel things and then just leave... don't say you care when I know you don't. Don't say your over her when I know your not. Don't say you love me in hopes to get laied...

Don't even get me started on how dumb guys are. They think with their dick. Wanting the perfect girl but not doing anything to get her, and if they ever do get the girl they never will treat her right. Cheating on her, playing with  her heart strings like a guitar and slowly killing her. Killing the once sweet, innocent, lovely girl, making her something unrecognizable..

It might come to shock to you but I'm a real  person with real emotions. Don't fuck with them. It hurts when I'm lied to. It kills me to know you don't care. I guess I'm just invisible...

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So umm yea.. hope everyone has a great day because I'm not. Just remember you all are beautiful wonderful made humans and I love all of you if you want to talk I'm trying to be on here more. I'm here for y'all. Much love ❤️