"I let waves of insults crash down on me, feeling myself drawing closer to an attack and then, it stops and the room is dead silent."
{Ryan is sent to a mental hospital and falls in love with not one, but two boys, which always leads to trouble. But...
WARNING WARNING Sad shit Sad shit °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° I wake up to warm air and tears on my face. Wow I'm so embarrassing I think to myself while recalling yesterday's events. I wonder what they thought of me, sitting there crying like a baby over stupid memories that will never happen again. I wonder what Josh thinks. I sigh and roll off the bed, landing on something warm with a thump. A small groan comes from beneath me and I jump up instantly. I turn and suck in my breathe. There, still asleep in MY bed was the one and only JOSH and I have to admit I went a little crazy. holy shit holy shit josh is in my bed I slept with josh. (Obviously not sexually dingbat) I turn and hurry to get ready before he wakes up because I'd rather him not wake up and see me look like a crackhead, it's just not happening. I pull off my shirt and examine the dried tears and black streaks that dotted it. I throw it down and pull on the clothes Josh had brought me from the day before. I'm halfway into the shirt when I hear a gasp from behind me. I whip around (hands still tangled in my shirt) to see Brendon staring at me red as a tomato.
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My jaw drops as I realize he was what I had landed on earlier. I mentally face palm and pull down my shirt. Brendon had turned away by now but his face was redder than before. I smirk a little before remembering that I was still practically naked from the waist down, oh shit. I grab the sweatpants from the floor and pull them on quickly before taking a breath and turning back to Brendon. "What are you doing here?" I ask trying to hide my embarrassment. He turns to me a few seconds later, still red. "Oh um I came to see you, because like um I got out yesterday but when I got here you were asleep so I waited and I guess I um I um fell asleep." he takes a deep breathe and smiles up at me and then it was my turn to be red. I look away before he can see my face heat up. I take a moment to collect myself before turning back to him and smiling again "You stayed. Again." I say quietly. He looks up at me again the red tint on his face slowly going away, he stares at me for a while almost to the point where it's a little creepy, but I don't think that because I'm staring at him too. Taking in every inch of him, his face, his body, his movements. I took it all in like a breath of fresh air, I breath out before breaking the stare. He reddens immediately and turns away "Sorry, I didn't mean to stare..it's just-you're just, idk." I smirk at how nervous I make him. I wonder if he likes me I think to myself Maybe I should test him I go over my plan quickly and jump into action. (Where is this confidence coming from?) I walk over to Brendon and drop down so we're face to face and only inches away, I hear his breath hitch as I move in closer, he makes a small grunt and looks into my eyes smiling before leaning in and pressing our lips together. A chill runs through my body as he pulls back brushing our lips together slightly.
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His mouth opens to say something but it's interrupted by a slight creak from the bed. My head snapped in that direction and my mouth pops open when I remember Josh was in my bed the whole time. What if he saw? Was he even awake? I get on my knees, to get a better view of him. I let out a sigh of relief when I notice Josh was still sleeping. I turn back to Brendon and before I say anything he gets up. "Sorry, I didn't-I don't know..I'll see you later then." and with that he rushes out the door, almost dropping his key on the way. I let out a groan and press a finger to my lips Wow, he actually kissed me the thought of it sent tingles down my spine and I instantly wish he was still here Oh the things I could do, would do My body feels alive now as I bite my bottom lip and push the thought to the back of my mind. I crawl over to Josh and shake him a few times before he groans and sits up on the bed. I smile at the way his hair is mashed to the side of his head. He's so cute I think while watching him stretch and yawn away any trace of sleep he had left in him. He smiles at me and checks the time, "You're supposed to be at breakfast right now." he says laying back down with a groan "How are you feeling?" he adds grabbing hold of my hand. Warmth moves throughout my arm and into my whole body I smile slightly before pulling myself and Josh off the bed, I catch myself quickly while Josh on the other hand hits the floor with a soft thump. "Fine, now" I say trying to contain my laughs, Josh opens his eyes and laughs softly before tightening his grip on my hand and pulling me down with him. I land right on top of josh hard and I hear him gasp, I get up slightly before sitting back on him "Karmas a bitch, aye?" I say with a slight smirk as I push down on him squishing him even more. He pushes me off instantly and jumps up with a small laugh "I guess it is." he replies, laughing harder when he see me start to rub my head. "Ha ha." I reply coldly before slowly getting up, and dusting myself off. I see Josh watching me out of the corner off my eye, I turn to him slowly and quirk an eyebrow, he laughs softly. "You're so skinny Ryan, let's go eat." he says quietly grabbing my arm suddenly and buzzing for someone to let us out. ~Skips ahead 30 minutes cuz a bitch is lazy lolol~ After arguing with the staff for twenty minutes about whether it was right or not for Josh to take me outside the building, he decided on ordering a pizza. We sat side by side, hand in hand surrounded by flowers and fresh grass. Josh insisted we eat in the garden away from all the other patients and I quickly agreed because frankly nothing ruins your appetite more than an old man running around in speedos. The pizza laid half gone, beside us on the grass. I smile to myself as I watch Josh tap his foot silently on the soft grass, but my smile fades as I remember what went down with Brendon earlier and how I jumped into hugging and holding onto Josh right after. My heart ached at the thought me continuing to play with his his feelings while I still liked Josh. God, they were right, you are slut. A stupid slut The memories of middle school bullies and multiple breakdowns in the bathroom made my eyes sting as I shut them tight blocking any tears that tried to escape. I feel a pair of arms wrap around me and a faint whisper next to my ear "You'll be okay, please don't cry." and at that moment I broke, split, shattered into all the pieces I so desperately wanted to keep together. I couldn't be here anymore. I need a way out. ------------------------------------------ A/N SSooo Ryan has been here for about a month going on two so he now looks like how he does in the pic below and Brendon looks like how he does in the pic as well because you know he has access to a barber. P.s ik this chapter is kinda bad I'm hella tired an I TRIED but the next one will be really long and a tiny bit scary so stay tuned(: ~layla🌸
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