Waves Don't Die

Antics

The way your eyes crinkled made me think you loved my antics
Made me think you loved me

Everyone else saw what I couldn't
That it was pity,
Pity for the plain girl

You weren't bad
You were good to me,
playing along with my jokes,
hugging me (loosely) when we departed
But
You withheld the truth,
Made me think that I actually had a chance
With the boy, king of our youth 

I should have known

Your smile
Your hugs
Your laugh
Pity, pity, pity
It was all because of pity

I never realized until I saw you with her
You grinned and laughed a full laugh,
Looking ecstatic to just be there in company with her

Your joy was enough to drown me in my own despair

I gasped and clawed for air but no one noticed my limbs breaking, cracking, crumbling,
As you leaned in and gave her a kiss so tender,
Even the sea that gently kisses the shore got jealous

She sees me watching
She gives me a sympathetic smile,
More
God damned
Pity

I'd rather never fall in love
Than get a look with a watering smile,
eyes getting kinder and faker

So please,
Don't kid yourself
Save you and I the trouble
And get out right now, potential lover
For I can't stop when my feelings take over
And I can't bear to have you not love me too