I feel uneasy when you're here
My cheeks should be rosy,
hair whipping in the wind, carefree
But I can only think about
how cold I feel when you leave
Sometimes I forget you exist
You don't visit like you used to
you rarely left back then--
only when my friends were mean
or when I did a bad thing
Now I inhale and you're gone,
exhale and I don't see you for months
I get out of bed and you're not there
Why aren't you there?
I've gone nights without sleeping,
laid in the dark listing reasons you hate me,
doodled on my arms until I became red
I know you're here because
I'm with people you love
But my knees are on the floor,
hands clasped tight
Please don't leave when they're gone
I'll smile until it hurts,
paint my nails yellow to remind me of you
I'll even force myself to love the boy
you admire so much
Please, happiness,
I'll do anything to get a
glimpse of you again
YOU ARE READING
Waves Don't Die
PoetryTitle alludes to Kanye West's song Waves. The world is full with stories-- it's hard not to get lost in them. Dedicated to Breanna706 and Aanokhi, thanks for pushing me to do this💕 love you guys