Popping pills

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I pops pills like candy
One anti depressant
One allergy
Two vitamin c's

Every day, sleep and repeat

You'd think I'd be a shell of a girl
Or that I'm over dramatic,
Crying wolf for being sad and anxious

Typical, another adolescent girl claiming depressed
Claiming to be mental, but for what reason?
What do I have to sad about?
I haven't been through anything,
I still have a family, middle class and blessed

But for me, depression isn't about specific situations
It's about a feeling
It's about the void I feel when alone and when I'm not
The inability to pick up my fork,
The loss of energy to do anything,
Because I feel helpless and self loathing 
It's about the GAD that fuels it,
Heart always buzzing, hands always clammy
I shut my eyes to tune everything out but get scared when I open them back up to see I'm all alone

Mental disorders aren't just about who you are and what you've been through
It's about what you feel, how you view the world,
How you see yourself

Stop the stigma
Therapists aren't heartless and cold
Pills don't change you, make you mush
People with mental disorders are still people-- still human,  like everyone else

Understand before you judge and generalize
Understand before you act high and mighty, claiming normalcy
No one is normal,
No one is okay
Support and embrace
Don't hesitate
Please,
Don't hesitate

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