Sweet Sanity

Sweet Sanity Chapter #9

 On the way back to Markarth, I thought more about my situation. This was my first real contract and I feel through the cracks of my emotion. I wondered how upset Muriri would be. Or how upset Astrid would be...Or Cicero, maybe he will think I'm not tough enough to be an Assassin.

My stomach continues to turn and flip and dip and do whatever it sees fit. My throat seemed tight each time I swallowed. I was incredibly nervous and anxious for what the consequences would be. I have never really fallen through on direct orders.

As I re-enter Markarth, my stomach doesn't get better. I enter the shop and Muriri is sitting there with her hands cupped and nervously sitting in front of the fireplace.

" Oh my, your back! So what of Alain?" She asks rubbing her hands together in anticipation.

" Dead..." I simply say back.

"And Nilsen?" She asks taking a step closer.

" Alive. I'm sorry the dark Brotherhood has a rule about killing two people in one contract. I'm sorry." I say to her taking a step back. My stomach was killing me, I was feeling really dreadful.

" Oh disappointing..." She says to me.

She hands me the gold and shoo's me out of the room. Even though killed her ex- lover I got nothing back in return. No thanks or appreciation. I guess it's my fault. The butterflies in my stomach began to rest and it felt nice to be at ease again.

I definitely can't wait to be home in the sanctuary. I just want to plop myself down on my bed and sleep forever.

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The carriage ride was more bumpy than usual. Apparently some stormcloaks were running around here and kicked up a bunch of rocks and boulders. They really are good for nothing.

We arrived home very soon. My legs were not ready to stand back up, but I just pushed through the numb feeling. I sluggishly approached the black door and with my remaining strength pushed the heavy metal to the side so I could enter.

I yawned pretty intensely. I pat my Ass, it was still sore from being dropped off a 6' foot man's shoulder. I cussed him out under my breath. Then I laughed, cause I remembered how easily he was killed with my mother's bow.

I start to walk through the front room, but halfway through Astrid steps right in front of me.

" Ah you're back, how did your first contract go. Is this a life you could see yourself living?" She asks me as she crosses her arms. She seemed a little antsy to be honest.

" Ah yes, it went quite well. " I say back to her. I didn't really want to discuss it at the moment. It was her weird vibe that was throwing me off.

" Oh wonderful. Long live the brotherhood and all that." She says awkwardly shifting from foot to foot.

I squint a bit in confusion and my brows push together. I say goodnight and start to walk away but she stops me.

" Wait, Corrina. We need to discuss a more, personal matter." She says grabbing my shoulder from behind.

My mind instantly thought that she found out about my little mess up and was going to chew me out for it. I turned around slowly with a slightly guilty smile on my lips.

" It's Cicero." She says blankly.

I shake my head a little bit a laugh.

" What has the fool done now?" I say with genuine interest.