Jiminrella's Story

It's Not Fine

Seungwan's POV

I open my eyes to the same old room. The same old dark dusty room. His cries still ring in my ear. His pleads still haunt me till this day...it's not fine..

I sit up and look down at my pillow to see the blood stains from last nights coughing. A few days ago I'd cry and fear the day I know that's coming but now I anticipate that day..nothing is fine without him..

Jimin's POV

I open the window and look outside. Today the sun is out and it's actually really beautiful...I think I'm doing pretty well today..I mean I don't even think about her anymore. I don't miss her beautiful dark brown hair. I don't miss her porcelain baby soft skin. Or-

Okay you are not fine Park Jimin...

You miss her more than anything. The way she would always blush whenever you compliment her. The way she would shyly hold your hand. Especially the way she would pull you into her embrace and sing you a lullaby when you worried about things...

But I have to pretend not to love her anymore...I have to pretend that everything is fine, but nothing's fine without her...

Seungwan's POV

Jungkook told me to go out more and so here I am wondering around the garden while the guards keep an eye on me.

Today the sun is out really high. It's actually really bright, too bright for my liking. But I do like the warmth it's sending to me.

I lost all warmth the day Jimin was taken from me. The day I ended us. And this is the closest Ill get to being warm again.

Jimin's POV

But I still find it weird that Seulgi is gone or left Taehyung...Taehyung is the only one she has left. Not even her father the king worried about her when we reported what happened.

Women are backstabbing liars. Once they find someone better they leave you. Is that why Seungwan left me?

Did she find someone else to love? Is it that Jeon Jungkook? Even if the sun is out, even if the sun fires out it's warmth, my heart has never been colder. I want to run back inside and hide...but I shouldn't...

I want to act like everything is fine, so I keep telling my self that I'm fine...is she fine?

Seungwan's POV

I'm not fine. Nothing is fine without him. Why am I trying to make myself happy? I should spend the rest of my days here sad and alone...

I wonder how he is? Is he like me? I let him go yet here I am still crying over the times we spent together. I let him go yet Im over here missing him like crazy.

I just wish that this pain goes away quickly...

Dear lord someone help me...

Jimin's POV

"How are you feeling today Taehyung?" I walk over to him as he practiced with the dummies. His strikes getting stronger with every hit.

He must still be very stress and upset about the situation with Princess Seulgi. I'm not sure if he misses her or if he believes that she ran away without him...but either way you can see the hurt in his eyes when he turns around to look at me.

It seems as though he's getting weaker and weaker by the day..it's been about three days since he's return...it's been about a week since Seungwan left me...

"Do you not miss her anymore?" I heard him say while turning back to the dummy. "No I don't miss her anymore..." you lying bastard...

She's all you can think about..

"I wish I could be like you, I wish I could forget about Seulgi...it's not like we were inlove like you and Seungwan so why am I having such a hard time?"

I gave him a frown not able to say anything else. The truth is, I'm not over her, I can't forget her, but I have to...I have to learn how to forget about her...

Mark's POV

I slowly crept on Seungwan as she sits quietly on the grass staring into space. It's been days since I last visited her, I just can't get myself to confront her, I'm the reason why she's in so much pain...

"Wan?" I called softly but she doesn't reply and places her head on my should when she feels me sit down next to her.

I do miss this...I miss this more than anything...just us spending time together, but now isn't the time. My Seungwan is dying inside and I can't do anything about it.

If I had known that she would be this broken....I would've never made the deal with her. You want her Mark, but now like this...not when she isn't willing to go...

"How many more days?" She whispers softly while looking up at me.

"Ten"

Her eye closes and she lets out a small smile. "Ten more days and I'm free...ten more days and I'll be with you, happy"

But will you be happy?

"Ten more days and you'll leave Jimin, is that what you want?"

She nods but I know it isn't. She wants to stay by his side for ever...

"I guess this is gods way of punishing him for separating us apart" she lifts up her head and stares at me. Her eyes filled with sadness.

I cup her face, "In ten days, I'll come get you okay?" She nods her head obediently.

Jimin's POV

I bolt up from the bed...why am I having such weird dreams? I keep having the same dream....

Seungwan is leaving me in the dream, I don't know where and when but she's leaving me and I'm standing there, just standing there watching her leave while holding another man's hand....

I'm really going crazy aren't I?

I miss her so much, I wish I could see her and her beautiful bright smile...I long for her touches.

I'll never be able to forget her...