When i woke up around 6, all of the memories of last night came flooding into my head. I immediately wanted to go back to sleep because i had been tossing and turning all night. I also wished willow were here so i could talk to her. I dont know what to do about jaden. Its gonna be hard trying to avoid himwhen we live in the same house.
I got up, went to my bathroom, took a shower and brushed my teeth. I got dressed in a light blue hoodie, pajama shorts, and socks and my addidas sandels. I checked the hallway first before i went to the kitchen. After i saw that it was clear i went downstairs. When i got downstairs i crossed into the living where madison and jaden making out. His hands were all over her body and her arms were wrapped around his neck. My heart fell on the ground and broke into millions of pieces. I felt like i wanted to kill madison and jaden both.
While trying to go away i bumped into a vase and it fell on the floor, breaking into little shards of glass. Jaden and madison stood up quickly and all the blood rushed into my face.
Me: I-im sorry. I was just going to the kitchen. *bends down to pick up the pieces*
Jaden: just leave it. I'll pick it up
Me: No i got it
Jaden: nic its fine-
Madison: no jaden she can pick it up. After all she did it
Me:???
Madison: come on, babe. Lets go to your and finish what we started
Jaden: im good
Madison: excuse me
Jaden: madison, maybe you should leave
Madison: what?!?!
Jaden: i said maybe you should-
Madison: i heard what you said! Are you kicking me out?
Jaden: i guess so
Madison looked shocked and had her mouth open. She stormed off leaving the living room. Jaden didnt come to my side until he heard the door open and slam close. He walked over to me and bent down to help.
Me: jaden you didnt have to do that
Jaden: dont worry i didnt lose much.... except you.
Me: .....
Jaden: nic i love you and i am so sorry. I didnt mean anything that came out of my mouth last night. I was just angry-
Me: why?
Jaden: why what
Me: why were you angry at me. Was it because i didnt put out or were you just looking for a reason to break up
Jaden: I wasnt looking for a reason to break up. I was just being stupid. I dont want you to feel like you have to give yourself up to please me. Calling you mine pleases me. And i can deal with just us being together without having sex. Im sorry for calling you a bitch, im sorry for making you feel insecure, and im sorry for being an asshole. Can you please forgive me
Me: jaden i love you too and i forgive you... but dont you think that all of these problems getting in between us are trying to tell us something. Maybe we shouldnt be together
Jaden: No! I love you too much to ever let you go. Dont do this
Me: how do i know that?
Jaden: because i'll never break up with you. I'll stay with you forever. I promise
Me: how can you promise something like that
Jaden: because i love you
Me: i love you too
He leaned in to kiss me and i let him. Idc about madison or anybody who tries to stop us from being together. I just wanted to be with jaden forever.
All of a sudden, jaden picked me up and carried me to his room without our lips even leaving eachothers. He laid me on his bed and i didnt stop him. He took off his shirt and mine. He took off my shorts and started unhooking my bra. I started undoing his belt and then he pulled away.
Jaden: are you sure you want to do this. I dont want you to think that you have to do this
Me: jaden ik i dont have to do this but i want to
Jaden: nic...
I didnt want him to ruin this moment. I pulled him to me and we started kissing again. Soon both of our clothes were off and reached over me to his nightstand. He opened the drawer and pulled out protection. He put it on and we went back to kissing. He went down to my neck and then he surprised me by sticking it in.
I screamed a little because it hurt so bad. A tear slid down my cheek and he wiped it away. He went back up to my face and put his lips to mine. After a while i wasnt in any pain. I didnt care about the fact that im only 13 and ive already lost my virginity. I was just glad i lost it to the right person.
