Hate That I Love You

Chapter Eight.

Running upstairs I go over to Justin's room, twisting the handle and throwing the door open as my eyes meet Justin, walking out of his bathroom, a towel wrapped round his hip, his head looking up as he sees me "Pia?"

Standing still after I slam the door closed "You can't just say all of that and then leave!" I repeat from when he left my house earlier, running a hand through his hair he takes a few steps closer to me "You drive me mad Justin, and I can't handle it! I don't like anyone, ok I learnt to like and care for my guys, they're my family now and they're all I have. But then you had to come along and fuck me up!" I confess, barely able to stop and breathe as everything I need to say blurts out all at once "I was fine being the way I was, a heartless bitch with no care in the world- no feelings and now all of this? These emotions I'm feeling all at once..." Pausing as Justin steps closer to me, holding my face with his hands I close my eyes at his touch. Not letting myself get distracted I push his hands away "That night you turned up at the job, I couldn't stand seeing you there. I went home and did what I did, not because I couldn't handle the job, not because of you. But because I couldn't handle myself. Every time I think about you my head feels like it's going to explode. I get butterflies every time we kiss, and just seeing you makes my heart race. I'm a completely different person when I'm with you, I feel things, I care..." Stopping myself as the air catches in my throat, a tear rolling down my cheek. Taking a deep breath, I finish what I want to say "...You're driving me insane, and I can't stand it"

Taking a step closer to me again, Justin leans his forehead on mine, lightly kissing my nose "That's what love does Pia, It drives you mad" he tells me taking my face in his hands and looking deep into my eyes. Closing my eyes it hits me, he's right. But I don't love him. I'm in love with him, every single thing about him "I don't love anything" I tell him, opening my eyes I see his smile and can't stop myself from smiling back at him "You love me...and I love you" Leaning into each other we kiss like we never have before, like sparks igniting from fireworks around us, my tummy exploding with butterflies.

Removing his hands from my face as they gently stroke down my back, groping my butt as he lifts me up, wrapping my legs around his torso. Walking over to the bed he lays me down, hovering on top of me. Leaning away slightly meeting my eyes, he moves a strand of hair from my face "You're so beautiful..." he whispers leaning back down to kiss me. Tugging at the ends of his shirt I'm wearing, pulling apart he lifts it over my head, throwing it to the floor. Slowly tracing his finger down the length of my tummy, he keeps his head where the sweatpants are, he gently places kisses from the bottom of my stomach, going up towards my breasts and finishing at my neck, where he slowly grips the skin with his teeth, sucking slightly. Kissing up to my lips as his hand meets the line of the sweatpants, sending shivers down my spine. Putting his hands either side of my hip as he pulls the sweatpants down, pushing my hips up to make it easier as he pulls them further down, leaving tender kisses down my leg. Throwing the sweatpants to the floor as his hand smoothly runs back up my leg, my hip and placed gently on my chin. Kissing me still as his hands travel behind my back unclasping my bra, his hands travelling down my arms as he takes the straps down from my shoulders. Taking the rim of my underwear and pulling them down my legs, my fingers stroking down his abs I take the end of the towel in my hand unwrapping it from his hips.

Opening my legs so that Justin fits between me, he looks intensely at me, smiling at him he inserts himself, both letting out a moan as he does so, the pain ripples through me as he thrusts slowly. Closing my eyes as I take a deep breath "Pia?" Justin asks, opening my eyes as he raises his eyebrow "Have you done this before?" he asks. Biting my lip I let out a nervous giggle as I shake my head. Chuckling to himself "If it hurts too much tell me, and I'll stop" nodding in reply, we carry on.

Both reaching our climax, we lay beside each other as our bodies are entwined, the only sound being our breathing that was just beginning to slow down. Laying my head on Justin's chest with my arm across his body. Whilst one hand is placed in my hair slowly twisted in between his fingers, his other hand stroking my arm, I can't help but smile. Everything at this moment was perfect. Although, nothing good ever stays...but instead of ruining it for myself, I push the negative thoughts away.