Hate That I Love You

Chapter Thirty Three.

One thing I’ve learnt over the time that Justin and I have been together is that he has a hold over me. No he’s not controlling, no he doesn’t make me do things. But when he knows I should do something, for example when Jason left for a job and Justin said I should go and say goodbye because it was the right thing to do, and now. He’s making me turn around and continue speaking to my mother.

All he has to do is ask, and when I look in to he’s deep brown eyes that are looking back at me, I know it’s something I should do.

So that’s why I do it.

I turn around, and however much I don’t want to continue this conversation, I do.

I flop angrily on the sofa in my previous seat, and Justin soon follows, sitting beside me.

“Pia will you stop?” Jason whisper yells beside me, his voice irritable. I snap my head in his direction “What?” I spit back. He raises his eyebrow, obviously not fond of my tone of voice. Well tough shit Jason.

“I didn’t do anything” I tell him, crossing my arms over my chest and sulking back in to the sofa “It’s not what you did, it’s the way you did it” “Whatever” I mumble back, shuffling closer towards Justin.

Taking a deep breath, I look at my mom. The anger rises in me just looking at her, but I make myself calm down before saying anything.

“You’ve explained why you disappeared, so why are we still having this conversation?” I ask.

Jason sighs beside me but I ignore it “I just want you to forgive me” My mom says, her voice cracking slightly.

I laugh before glaring at her, my eyes narrowed as I feel everyone waiting in anticipation of what I’m about to say, their eyes all burning in to me “I don’t forget, and I don’t forgive. And you are definitely not the exception”

“Pia I swear to god if-“ “Jason. Will you shut the fuck up for just two minutes? Why are you so calm? Our fucking supposed mother left us nine years ago. She left you to look after me and you’re acting like the sun shines out her fucking ass!” I stand up and prod Jason in the chest before storming out of the room. I let the fresh air fill my lungs for a few seconds whilst contemplating where I want to go. It’s not like I’m at home and can drive to The Lake, or The Park. I look around before hastily walking in the direction of the beach, the closer I get to it, my legs speed up and I end up running.

Justin’s POV

“You can’t blame her Jason, she’s just upset” I’m standing by the door, just about to run after Pia, when her mom says this. And it’s me this time that’s angry.

I turn around and walk over to her “You have no idea what she’s going through, if you think she’s upset now, it’s more than obvious you don’t know a thing about her. I think you should leave” I tell her, before feeling Jason beside me. I turn to face him and I can tell he’s angry “Don’t Jason. Just don’t. You know what I’m talking about so don’t you dare get angry at me” I tell him before he can say anything. When he doesn’t argue back I turn to leave, and when I can’t see Pia I start to panic.

I look around the outside of the cabin for a few seconds, before guessing where she would be.

I start running in the direction of the beach, and when I see a running figure along the sand, I know it’s Pia.

Pia’s POV

I finally manage to take control of my legs, and the only way I’m able to stop them is by falling to the ground, and before I know it I start crying. But for what exactly? There’s so many reason why I could be upset right now, but honestly. I think it’s because I’m angry.