Hate That I Love You

Chapter Twenty Three.

Songs for this chapter: Fall: Justin Bieber.

"Well let me tell you a story, about a girl and a boy. He fell in love with his best friend, when she's around he feels nothing but joy, but she was already broken and it made her blind. But she could never believe that love would ever treat her right"

Love Will Remember: Selena Gomez.

"We used to be inseperable, I used to think that I was irreplaceable. We lit the whole world up, before we bliew it up, I still don't know just how we screwed it up"

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I ended up crying myself to sleep before Justin even came up to bed. I don’t know what happened when I left but I didn’t hear arguing, I didn’t even hear talking. Honestly I don’t want to know.

What I do want to know is why he’s back. It exhausted me just seeing him, the emotions overwhelmed me. The fact that Justin was there? That just made it even worse.

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“I’m sorry Tate, I can’t do this anymore, I I- I just can’t” I stutter, unable to get the words out without the tears choking me.

“Pia please, please don’t do this. I know you’re scared. Please” He begs, taking my hands in both of his, his hands gripping tighter when I try to get away, it was like he was scared to let me go.

“I’m sorry” and this time he lets me go, everything becoming a blur through the tears.

“You’re all I have Pia” His voice is deeper, when I blink to clear my eyes, his eyes are bloodshot from crying, I hate seeing him like this. But it’s better if I leave before it gets too serious

I turn around, and begin to leave.

Holding the door handle, I hear him say one more thing:

“You’re all I need…Please don’t go” His voice was quieter this time, trembling slightly.

I open the door and leave, and the sadness is overpowering. I’ll never see him again.

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I wake up startled, my breathing heavy and my cheeks damp. I was crying in my sleep over the dream I had. Another dream I’ve tried to forget because it wasn’t just my imagination…no that was real. Once upon a time, he was my world.

Looking beside me I frown, Justin’s not beside me. I didn’t see him come to bed, and I didn’t see him leave. I wonder if he even slept beside me last night.

Getting out the shower I get dressed in a pair of light washed ripped skinny jeans, along with a loose top that’s cut beneath the arms showing off my black lace bra. I don’t bother putting on any make up or doing my hair, I leave it all natural.

I take my bag and get in my car, also noticing no one else is home I take a cigarette out and take a deep drag. Yes I’m pregnant I’m fully aware, but once in a while isn’t so bad right?

Damn I’ve missed smoking.

Driving to nowhere in particular, I notice a familiar figure in the distance walking along the sidewalk. Pulling up beside him just a little in front, he probably recognises the car because he gets in the passenger seat.

We don’t say a word to each other the whole way to our destination, the main reason being I turned my music up loud. When we’re near to where we’re going, the radio turns to a song. Out of all songs, it’s Ignition by R Kelly. Whatever was going through my mind, I give in and start laughing. I look at Tate to see him laughing too. After laughing we start singing along, random dance moves to go with it. I smile, cherishing the memories we used to have, it was always the same when this song came on. We’d sing, we’d dance, we’d be happy.