Hate That I Love You

Chapter Thirty Five.

After around three hours of tossing and turning in sleep with my mind nowhere near ready to turn off, I eventually drift off to sleep for almost an hour before being startled by my phone ringing.

Fuck, shut up, don’t wake Justin up. Crap.

Picking up my phone from the bedside table, I answer it and look back at Justin who hasn’t even moved.

“Hello?” I say in to the phone, rubbing my eyes a little to wake up more.

“Pia? I- oh god I can’t believe it” Rose. Whatever she was going to say was cut off with her crying.

I stand up from the bed and give her a few seconds to calm down whilst taking a shirt of Justin’s off the floor to put on. I should be more worried over the fact that she’s crying down the phone to me at four in the morning. But Justin’s safe beside me, and that’s all I truly care about. Selfish I know.

“Rose, Calm down. Is anyone with you?” I ask, pacing the floors and not taking my eyes off Justin as he continues sleeping.

“Austin is” She mumbles before crying again.

“Ok, pass the phone to Austin” I say, taking my eyes off Justin and glancing around the room.

After a few seconds, I hear movement on the phone and hear Austin’s voice“Pia. Something’s happened” He states. I roll my eyes, and answer more sarcastically than I probably should “Yeah I kind of gathered that”

I hear him sigh, and stop myself from pacing the floors, ready for whatever he has to say.

“It’s Nathan. He’s…he’s dead”

My grip around the phone goes tighter, and a tear rolls down my cheek.

“Pia? Are you there?” Austin asks and I nod, even though he can’t see me.

“Yeah. Wh-What happened?” I ask, coughing slightly to get rid of the lump in my throat.

I sit over on the bed close to Justin, shaking him awake. It takes a few seconds before he hastily sits up and looks at me. He’s worried. He’s never waken up unless something’s happened. He runs his hands over my arms and I put the phone on speaker so we can both hear.

“Derek he...”

“WHAT?” I shout, not having a care in the world if I woke everyone else up.

I stand up and instead of dropping the phone, it’s surprisingly still in my hand.

“No Pia, don’t get mad-“ I cut him off by letting out an angry growl “Don’t you dare me tell me to not get mad when you’re saying Derek, that stupid motherfucking son of a bitch has killed Nathan” I seethe through my teeth. I catch a glimpse of Justin and he’s already looking at me, shaking his head.

“It was an accident. Derek tried to save him, but it was too late” Austin says, and I let out a shaky breath. Handing the phone to Justin before it falls to the floor, I sit on the floor with my head in my hands. The tears slowly starting to fall.

Don’t get me wrong, I liked Nathan and I’m upset that he’s gone. But I can only thank God it was no one else. Nathan had only been with us a year, therefore I only knew him these past few months, so I wasn’t as close to him as I was with the others. I had known Dom, Tate and Mark most of my life. Ali I had known for around eight years and I’d be devastated if it was any of them. Wow I’m an asshole.

I start to get angry again. Really angry.

Not only at myself for being a selfish bitch, but also at Derek. He’s pushed it too far this time.