Hate That I Love You

Chapter Thirty Nine.

I’ve been thinking about this for a while now, and the more I think about it, the more scared I get.

Today’s the day.

It even makes me wonder how just one person can change not only you, but your thoughts and views. In my case, I fell in love with Justin. He changed my views on life, and everything included: love, people, emotions, business…and marriage. He broke down my walls and I let him in, and never have I regretted it, not even for a second.

Waking up from the sun shining through the curtains I slowly slide out of bed and quickly shower and got ready before Justin woke up. It was around 9am when I walked back into the bedroom after getting ready for the day.

Going over to my side of the bed I picked up the piece of paper, with Justin’s father’s address on it and read it a few times, and with every second that went by, the more nervous I got.

Would Justin be mad? Would he completely ignore the piece of paper, and throw it away like it was nothing?

Well now I’m about to find out, so here goes nothing.

I put the paper beside the box and sat beside Justin, I kissed him on the lips and leant down towards his ear “Baby wake up” I sing sang before sitting back up. I poked him a few times, and finally his eyes opened.

The smile that appeared on his face once his eyes opened made my heart leap “Happy birthday gorgeous” I tell him, a smile of my own creeping across my lips. Justin sat up, holding his arms out to me, I leant forward and wrapped my arms around his bare torso, I could feel the heat radiating off his body, his heart beating against my chest “You could of at least have given me a lay in, as it’s my birthday” Justin said jokingly whilst we both pulled apart “Oh you had no chance of that” I said. Justin got himself more comfortable in bed, and I took a deep breath before leaning over and taking the box and piece of paper in my hands. I looked down at them both before taking the piece of paper and turning it over, laying it down on the bed so that the address was hidden. I held the box tightly in my hand before looking up at Justin and handing it to him.

“Hope you like it” I told him, handing the box over to him. He looked at me before smiling and opening it “Sweet mother of god…” Justin’s voice whispered, and just at that I smiled, knowing he liked it. He lifted the small cushion inside the box and unclasped the watch, putting it on his right wrist, he held it back to look at it from afar before examining it closer.

He twisted the 18k Yellow Gold Diamond Day Rolex Watch, so that the diamonds shimmered in the light “Thank you, so so much” I smiled and moved over to him, and held him closely “Look at the back” I told him, moving back to my previous position. He unclasped it again and turned it over “You are my forever” Justin had read the engraving on it. When he looked up at me, I suddenly felt embarrassed and shrugged it off “Forever seems to be our thing, so yeah…” I broke off, seeing Justin chuckle slightly “Come here” Justin said after putting the watch back on, pulling my arms towards him so that I ended up sitting on his lap. I leant against his chest and held him close, never wanting to let him go.

“There’s…err…there’s one more thing” I mumbled, feeling my heart race quicken just knowing, this is it.

I sat up and moved to face exactly opposite to Justin, putting my legs either side of him. I took the piece of paper in my hand and took a deep breath before handing it to him.

He read it, and I could see him frowning.

Now’s the time Pia.

“That’s your dads address. I asked Ryan to get it for me, because I wanted to erm. Well I guess, I just thought maybe you’d want to…fuck why is this so hard?” I mumbled on, not knowing the right words to say, until Justin put the piece of paper down on his bedside table and looked at me.