Ruby's pov
I got up from bed and walked to my bathroom. Ugh i had a little bit of dark circles from not getting enough sleep. I couldn't really go to sleep i kept thinking about what would happen at school. Anyways i washed my face and started to pull out my make up bag. I put on a light weight foundation. Next was a little bit of concealer i usually don't wear some but my bags alwere really sinking in. I brushed my eyebrows upwards with some clear brow gel. They didn't need to be filled in anyways. They were a little fluffy and thick. I grabbed one of my darker eyeshawdow pallet and did my eyes. I put on a maroon lipstick that would finish into a matte one. I took my hair out of a huge french braid so it was nice and loose waves. Not the kind that ended up looking like ramen noodles or something.
I applied a little bit of mascara and turned off my lights to my room and walked over towards my closet. I already thought of what i was going to wear today. I do this everynight before i go to sleep. I pulled out my outfit.(pic above). I slipped on my long socks and shoes. I grabbed my backpack and put it on i picked up and did my bed before i left. Also i don't own a phone my mother insists but i simply feel like i don't need one. Besides don't have anyone to call or text. I walked downstairs and my mom already left. She laterally works almost all day. I feel bad and i told her i could help and get a job but she just wants me to focus on school and recover fully without stressing too much. Its something im most definetly not proud of. I knew something was going to end happening like this. When i was younger i stood out. I didn't like what every other little girl liked. I didn't wear twinkle toes,i didn't wear pink clothing,i wasn't one to be social. I weard clothing like black dresses with buckled shoes. Sometimes id wear some pants with a shirt. I didn't play with other kids i stood inside and read books. It was always me and my mommy. Kids would question why i didn't have a father and would blame it on me and call me a freak.
It was in middle school i couldn't take it anymore everything was just becoming to heavy for me to deal with. Some kids would mess with me i think their names were amanda and logan they were bestfriends and they've always hated me ever since elementary school. Everyday it would be the same thing verbal abuse then on my way home physical. I never told my mom because i was scared of making the problem bigger than what it was . i don't remember what they did to me that day but i couldn't take it any more nor take it back.
Flashback
I showed the bus driver my i.d. and got on the bus and sat down. It was another hard day at school today one amanda tripped me in the hallway,two when i got my lunch out that my mom packed out of my backpack logan took it out of my hands and threw it on the ground and stomped on it and pushed me back into a locker. Then later throughout the day the both of them would call me names non stop just so that everyone would laugh at me. My only friends were ethan and grayson the usually help me with this kind of stuff but they didn't show up today.
The bus started to move and 10 mins later it stopped down my street. I sighed and got off i already knew what was to come. I started walking and sure enough they were playing outside on logans front lawn. I tried to walk fast past them but they saw me. And ran towards me. I started running but amanda had jumped on my back causing me to fall.i can't really remember what happened but i remember just feeling so worthless and i didn't want anything to do with this world. I cried all the way home my hair messed up from being pulled on tears streamed down my face. I ran upstairs and dropped my backpack on my bedroom floor.
I walked into my mommys room and had saw a picture of my dad and her together when they were young. I was sobbing and walked to my mommys bathroom. I looked in the mirror and saw my lip bleeding scratches on my face and my left eye bruised. They had told me i should die and killmyself and maybe I'll get to see my daddy if i don't go to hell. I opened the mirror and saw some sleeping pills . i don't remember how many i put in my mouth but apparently it caused me to be in coma for a week and a half and seeing a therapist once a week which i still see.
End of flashback
I picked up an apple from the counter and saw my mom left me 10 dollars for lunch. I put in my wallet and grabbed my house keys and locked the door. It was a beautiful day and the sun was out but it wasn't too hot. I was eating my apple and continued walking to the bus stop and sat at the bench. I showed up early so i pulled out my book that i was reading last night and picked up from where i left off.i bit my lip and lighlty read out loud.
I love you annie. I gasped because of what he had just said. It can't be.this is just a joke. No one. And i truly and deeply mean no one could ever possibly love me. I noticed david was just waiting for me to say something. "No you don't ,you can't,i-its fake"
"Look you've been scared of love because what it did to you" (the weekend anybody?)
"Look at what we have here little miss freak reading about love,ha closest thing she'll ever get to love" i stopped reading out loud and closed my book looking up. The two people i was dreading to see this morning i was hoping they would have taken their car. Ethan and grayson dolan. It wasn't always this way.
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