I was walking down the halls as my dress would flow side to side. I held my book close to me. But winced because i had forgotten about the bruises i had. I kept moving past other. Peoples shoulders. I don't know whats wrong with me its like they broke my sunshine yeasterday. I would usually move on but i couldn't. His face said it all when he looked back. "Hey gray watch this" i looked up but i got pushed on the floor by ethan. I made a whimper noise along with a thud from my butt hitting the floor. Everybody was laughing but gray just stood there leaning against the wall. Looking at me.
I rolled my eyes and picked up my book and kept walking. I some times wish id never been born at all. I carried on walking to my geometry class.
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I was working on a handout the teacher gave us. I only had one more problem. Once i finished it i went on my phone. I was at the corner so she didn't mind plus students couldn't see over my shoulder on what i was doing. I recently got this new app called wattpad were you can read books online so i started reading one about this girl who deals with suicidal thoughts and and mother. It was really good so i added it to my private library list.
After the bell rang i got up and packed mystuff. Everybody already left. I pulled out my phone and started listening to twenty one pilots album vessel. I walked out into the hallways and down the stairs. I walked out the school. I chose to walk home because the weather was cold and it was nice. I was halfway home when a car pulled up next to me. I ignored it and kept walking. I removed my headphones and tucked it in my dress pocket.i looked to the side and rolled my eyes seeing it was the twins assuming it was Graysons car since he was driving. Ethan rolled down his window and called out my name.
I looked over and he was recording me on snapchat. I looked down immediately."hey freak look at the camera" he was taunting me. I ignored him and kept walking eventually they made a stop at a stop sign.i looked before crossing. I walked across the street as my boots would scrape against the gravel. I made it to other side when i heard a whistle i looked up and got a slushi thrown at me. My mouth opened because it was freezing i was gasping and looked as they sped off with ethan laughing.
I wiped the red substance off my face and ran home. I walked up my porch and ran upstairs slamming my door and threw my back pack on my desk and cried in frustration. I kept pacing back and forth in my room probably creating a draft. I chocked on my sobs and sat on my floor rocking back and forth crying. It's times like this i wish i had a father to beat up all the cruel people in my life.
I stopped and looked up and saw something i shouldn't have. Grayson was on top of this blond chick from our chemistry class. It made me sick i got up and closed my doors.
I removed my clothes and started a hot bath for my self. Once the tub filled i sat down and relaxed. I don't know why but i started crying just staring at the tile walls. I just can't take it. I literally have done nothing to deserve any of this. My moms to busy to ever notice now and dad he's gone. I have no friends the one's i used to are my bullies. I layed back and looked to my right seeing my razor i use to shave. I don't know why but it looks like my only relief i shakeingly picked it up and broke it removing the blades. I winced because i cut my fingertip. I saw a little bit of blood trinkle down. It looked pure. Satisfying.
