Always and forever

Chapter 2

It was a Monday afternoon, July 21st. I was just returning from school with my friend Kate. I was in a very good mood. Today was our last day of school and I had invited Kate home. She was staying for the night. We were walking home hand in hand, not knowing what was awaiting me.I opened the door. Silence. I couldn't hear the usual noise I heard everyday. I couldn't hear Anna's screaming, nor Toby's loud music. I didn't see my mom nor my dad. I didn't get the usual hug i used to get every single day. There were no lights. Today dad was home but I didn't see him anywhere. And at that moment I sensed something was wrong. I started to get scared.

 Suddenly my phone rings, it's from dad.

 I answer his call as he says what I thought I would  never hear." Darling, you need to come to the hospital now, your mom had a stroke, i'll tell you everything later Emma, please hurry up ok?" There was fear and panic in his voice. My heart started to beat faster, sweat started coming from my forehead, I started to shiver, i felt like someone was choking me. "No, not my mom.God, not her, please!"Kate was hearing it all the time and drove me to the hospital right then" All the time we were going i was praying "please save my mom, don't let go of her". I was scared to death. I had never experienced a death in my life. I did not want my mom to go. No. No. No. She wouldn't leave me and go. She would never do that. 

We reach the hospital.

I ran as fast as I could to where my dad told mom was. I saw dad, Toby and Anna. Dad was pacing here and there, he looked as if he had cried. For the first time I saw Toby cry, as soon as he saw me he came running and hugged me. I knelt and hugged him back as tears started coming from my eyes. We held each other for 10 whole minutes and then i went to dad. I didn't have the strength to walk. I thought i would fall right there. I reached my dad. He saw me and said" Emma, Mom, its serious. She had a stroke. She was doing the dishes. I had just reached home. I came as fast as i could." and then he collapsed onto a chair and then my dad, who I had never seen cry before started crying. I wanted to console him, but i didn't have the courage to because i knew i would cry. I wanted to get out of there. i wanted to jump from a mountain. I didn't wanna live a life without my mom in it. No. Mom would never leave us here and go. And then I couldn't control anymore. Tears started flowing from my eyes like a dam just opened. I had to face the fact that my mom was gonna leave us forever. But I couldn't. I just COULDN'T!

The doctor told us that my mom wasn't gonna survive. I felt like a million thorns were piercing my heart. The tears didn't stop flowing from my eyes. That was it. My mom would be gone. I had to live a life without the hugs and kisses she gave me, I wouldn't feel her warmth and her caresses. I wanted to get in and hug my mom and never let go of her. We were told that we could meet her. She didn't have much time left. She was still conscious. I ran towards my mom and hugged her. My mom stroked my hair and kissed me. A tear fell from her eyes. I started crying and Toby came near me and we both hugged mom.

 I said "Mom, i love u, i love u more than anything or anyone, i love u till i die, Mom please don't leave" My mom took my hands and with tears in her eyes said, "Honey, i love u more than u love me, my love for u is bigger than all the oceans in the world. Sweetie I'm really sorry but mom has to go. I know life will never be the same again but remember one thing, even if I'm gone i will love you more. Toby, Emma, i want you both to take care of dad and Anna. Promise that you will always love me and dad." Toby said" Mom I'll miss you a lot" "I love you too darling and i am gonna miss you too. Emma, Toby, i'll tell you something, the ones who truly love you never really leave you, they will always be right here in your hearts" she said touching our hearts.Mom then went towards her neck and removed the chain she had and gave it to me. She said" Emma, whenever you need me or you miss me know that i am in here" and she gave me the  chain. I put it right then and we hugged my mother.

My dad and mom held each other for a long time. He was crying. My mom never wanted to see him cry. We all stood near her for a long time, telling stories, talking about the things we did, we remembered all our memories together and then she was gone. My mother left us forever. The fact that she was never gonna come back broke my heart into a million pieces. I kept catching mom's chain. I and Toby held each other with Anna. She was crying. Even though she had no idea what was going on, my little angel was crying. 

Mom loved us. I knew she left happy and not sad. When mom died, her last words to me were    

  "Emma, star of my heart".