Always and forever

Chapter 14

"What do you think when you see another girl?"

"That she's not like you."

How did he always have the right answers for everything? 

The baker river looked beautiful in the mornings. It was Lily's idea that we go there someday because she had gone with justin. And she was right, the view was just awesome with the sun rising and shining on the clear blue water. I wanted to sit right there and paint it all.

"This is just amazing." i said.

I rested my head on his shoulders and continued walking, our hands interlinked.

"School's gonna open next Monday Emma. You're coming right"?

I hadn't really thought about school   until Liam had reminded me.

"I don't know if I wanna go "I said without thinking .

"What do you mean ''I don't know if I wanna go", of course you HAVE to go. You can't just miss school Emma"

"I know that" I said feeling stupid all of a sudden.

Liam pressed my hand softly , "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, really." I wasn't sure about what I'd said but I smiled to reassure him.

"I'm not so sure...."

"Cmon, leave that. Let's talk about you. You and Lily are going . Right?"

"Well duh. You think mom and dad will let us live if we stop school? As much as I want to"

I giggled. Mr and Mrs Evans were very concerned about they're kids' education. That clearly explained why  Lily went for tution during the hols.

"And I won't let you live if you don't join school. Neither will lily. It will be a fresh start Em. Think about it.

(Em....I love how he used to call me that )

"God, you too?I know okay .I don't need you too telling me that." I was starting to get annoyed by that time. At first it was lily,  then nana, then Lily's mom and dad  and now Liam. I was tired of hearing them say about having a fresh start  as much I appreciated they're care and concern for me.

"Did you know you're incredibly cute and adorable  when you get angry"

That made me smile. Liam knew how to make me happy even when I was at the verge of killing someone.

"Sòoòooo..are we officially girlfriend and boyfriend or something? "He asked.

"I don't know Liam, i just feel weird with lily being my friend...best friend anddd  we still haven't gone on a date. Dont you think we should maybe go slower?"

"Yeah you're right."

I thought I sensed sadness in his voice .

"I'm sorry Liam . I still like u, a lotttttt. I just don't want us to destroy our relationship  with lily."

I know , I like u a lot too, a lot. There's nothing you have to be sorry about.

I wasn't sure I liked him. I was scared that I loved him.

As soon as I got home I asked nana about school. Well obviously her answer was yes and all the crap about fresh start. So it was decided, I was gonna go to lily and Liam's school. How bad could it be?

"Yàaaàaaàaaaaaayy! You're joining school!!!!!!! Do u know how happy I am?????!"

"Yeah I can see that" I said cracking up. I loved how lily blew up when she was excited . (What didn't I love about her?)

"Leme make one thing clear first, You're always gonna be with me, you do not have to worry about being alone at any condition k? And even if I'm not there , you're gonna have liam remember? " she said linking our hands.

"Yeah , Liam ." I said dreamily, not realising how dumb I looked.

"So what's up with you guys? Anything new?" She said, Making the naughty  face. "There's nothing lils , we are taking it really slow OK?  I think we r even gonna just be friends by the way we are moving. I mean we haven't gone on a date yet you know."

"Well, good for you, no kidding but I'd hate to see you kiss my brother. Seriously, how gross ." She looked like she was gonna throw up.

That was enough to crack me up.

There was a knock on the door. Liam came in.

"Hey, idiot were you gonna tell me you were coming to school?" He said pouting .

"Yeah I was." I couldn't control my laughter to how cute he looked when he pouted.

"OK I think I'm gonna go now. Bye guys. Please dont do anything gross."

"Shut up" we said together.

Awkard silence . I felt speechless for the first time. Everything started getting weird all of a sudden . I knew Liam felt the same thing.

"Well, this is weird."

"I know right, hey why don't you play me a song?"

"Yeah OK, wait what should I play?"

"Anything , just to get rid of the awkwardness " I smiled .

He took his guitar. It was just perfect. He looked so perfect with a guitar, I resisted the urge  to go and kill him with my hug.

" 'Then you looked over your shoulder, for a minute I was stone  cold sober
I wanna dance with you right now..

Then you asked me to stay over, I said I already toldya, I think that you should get some rest..

Just Say you won't let go..
Say you won't let go
Say you won't let go
Say you won't let go ..ohhh'

Hey this is my version of the song OK?  I know it sounds completely different" he smiled .

"Are you kidding me? Tat was amazing Liam! Oh my God, I knew you were good but I didn't know you were this good!"

He started laughing , that's when I realised I looked like a surprised walrus. Great.

"Well, thank you madam" he said acting so sophisticated which made me giggle (I hate giggling fyi )

And then all of a sudden he looked serious . He stood up and came towards me , "I'm happy you're coming to school Emma."And he hugged me. I hugged him back. I thought I was gonna melt into the ground.

"You were right about what you said today, maybe we should go slow, I was thinking maybe stay friends?"

I couldn't believe it. I didn't mean that at all. That was the opposite of what I had meant. I never wanted us to stay just friends .

"Liam, I want us to be more than friends. I really like you. and after what happened In the park..."

"I know Em, I like you more than anyone else in this world" he stroke my cheeks, " but maybe this isn't the right time . Maybe we should do this after school when we both are free of all the pressure . "

He was right . This wasn't a breakup, it was just us postponing things, being serious, and it wasn't even a breakup coz we were never girlfriend and boyfriend.

He hugged me again, this time more tightly, "I'm  scared that i'm falling for you." We pulled away and for a moment our eyes met. I felt that thing again. I looked away. I hated looking into his eyes because i knew id never stop.  Something went between us, like magic .

Maybe that is why they call it love .
I was scared that I was falling for him too.