Always and forever

Chapter 9

The next day I and Lily hung at her house. I couldn't believe how fast we were going from friends to best friends to sisters. We were having a lot of fun baking cupcakes, throwing the dough on each other and eating all the leftovers. By afternoon after having lunch Lily said she needed to go for her tuition (during holidays! mad right?!).But we didn't eat the cupcakes. We decided to share it with everyone after Lily came from her tuition.

I went back home. I was happy, i wasn't worried about anything. Now i barely thought about mom. Most of the days i was able to sleep peacefully without ANY nightmare. I didn't miss mom a lot now, I had her chain and that gave me the courage. I knew that my mom was proud of me for moving on.

 I went straight to my bed, jumped onto it and fell fast asleep. I was exhausted ya know. I woke up after 2 hours. It was 5:30, Lily was probably home by now. So i went. Usually i didn't have to ring the bell, the door would be open before but it was locked. So i rang the bell. The door opened.

Behind the door was Liam.

"Hey, what are you doing here?"

"What i can't come here when i want to?"

"Well then, since you are kind of a part of our family, you may come in"

I got in. "I was gonna come in anyway".

"Just so you know, no one's home right now. Lily's gone for tuition, Lucy is out shopping with mom and dad's at work. So we are COMPLETELY alone. You seen the movie home alone?"

"Ha. Ha." I said sarcastically, "I'm not scared of burglars dumbo. Anyways, we are two people so not exactly home ALONE."

"Whatever. If you are feeling scared or something you can just come to my bedroom, you know which one it is,and we can see Barbie movies so you wont be scared anymore."

I rolled my eyes, "Get out!"

"For your KIND information" he said emphasising on 'kind', "this is my house and I can't get out, as much as i want to, without my parents' permission because I'm grounded." Liam said.

"Why so?"

"Dad and mom found out about my tattoo, I got busted. No going out unless it's an emergency. Bla bla"

I couldn't help but laugh.

"Dude, don't l laugh. It ain't funny." I said "Oh, sorry"

He looked at me for a second and i looked back. It was weirdly silent. I wasn't sure if I liked it beng silent. Awkard!

To change the awkward atmosphere between us I said "Wait a minute, I thought Lily would have reached home by now." 

"Ha, no. She's only gonna reach after half an hour. Looks like you're stuck with me Emma"

"Oh no!! Damn it, why did I wake up?" I told myself loud enough so he would hear. He laughed. To be honest I was kinda REALLY happy to know that I would be alone with Liam.

Suddenly Liam asked me, "Emma, where is your chain?"

"What do you mean?" I looked at where my chain should have been. It wasn't there.

I looked at Liam. He knew what was gonna happen now.

I started panicking. I was freaking out. Since mom died i had NEVER taken the chain out my neck. My neck was it's rightful place. I started having the same feeling I had when i heard mom was in the hospital. My heart started beating fast, I felt like someone was choking me.

I felt dizzy, I had to sit on the sofa. I couldn't breathe. What the hell was happening? Why was i freaking out for just  a chain? I know. It was like losing my mom again. 

The next thing I knew was feel someone hold me. Then everything went black.

I had no idea how much time passed by. Lily was still not home. Where was she?! I needed her so badly. Lily where are you?

I was still feeling dizzy. My vision slowly started to come back. I saw Liam in front of me. I wanted to hug him. I didn't know why. I wanted to cry. No, Emma not here. Don't embarrass yourself.

Then Liam came so close to me that I could feel us breathing the same air. I thought he was gonna kiss me. Shit! Not now. I wasn't in a good condition. But then he stopped in mid-air. Hallelujah! He wasn't gonna kiss me. Instead i felt his hands go to my neck. What the hell was he doing? And then I knew, he was putting my chain on my neck. All the time he was looking at me. Into my eyes. God,  why did he have to do that! It made me feel all butterflies in my stomach. Even after putting it on my neck he was still in the mid- air. I wanted to push him back, as much as i didn't.

"Where did you get my chain from?" "It was in the kitchen sink, probably because you were making those cupcakes."

I was soooooooo relieved!!!!! I felt like i was in heaven.

And then he went back to his position, took my hand and said, "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, kinda."

"What just happened Emma?  You scared the crap out of me".

"I just. Liam, remember when I told you that this was my mom's. I'm not sure you will understand. But losing this is like losing my mom. And i couldn't afford that. I know it may seem really stupid to you that. And you might think that I'm a coward for freaking out and fainting just because I lost a chain. Sorry for scaring you but this chain means a lot more than just something i wear on my neck. My mom gave this to me seconds before she died. This is my only and best memory of her. I hope you understand. Please don't think I'm a coward or anything. I was jus....."

 I couldn't continue talking. I was stopped by Liam. He put a finger on my lips and laughing said, "Stop talking or I'll kiss you." I smiled, in my heart I was freaking the HELL out! Did he just tell he would kiss me?! Aaaaaahhh!) He said, "I understand Emma, and I'm not just saying that. I lost ,my best friend two years back. He was the one who bought me my guitar. One scratch on it and I go till any ends to fix it. He died in a car accident. The guitar  was my last happy memory of Jason. He was the one who helped me in my passion for music. That year was the worst year of my life. You're not the only one who misses a person too badly. You're not the only one who thinks of someone every night before going to sleep Emma. " And he took my hand in his.

I sat up, I never knew Liam had all this going on in his prefect life. I never knew him well as i thought i did. I was just getting to know him well. We looked at each other for a while. And then i couldn't control myself. I hugged him said, "I'm sorry about Jason, and you know i mean it". 

This time i didn't freak out when i hugged him. I meant what i said with all my heart and i knew Liam knew it.

"I'm sorry about your Mom too" the innocence in his voice was enough to make me fall in love with him all over again.

It was all just the beginning.  I was just starting to know Liam. My life was just beginning.

And i knew it was because of love.

I was surviving because of love. Love of my best friend and the love of a boy.