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Min-young's POV

Oppa kissed me in the forehead and went out.

I want to see him. I badly want to. I hope he is okay now. I've decided.

I removed the dextrose in my hand. "Ugh. Dang!" That stings.

I looked at the sofa beside me, there's a bag with my clothes in it. So I changed my hospital gown into jeans and loose shirt and a converse. I also wore the hat that my brother left to hide the bandage in my head.

"Damn," My head hurts so bad.

I took the box of pizza with me. I instantly went outside and walk normally outside the hospital.

I took a cab and went to BigHit Ent.

As soon as I arrived, I went to the entrance and said it was a pizza delivery. The guard immediately let me inside. I asked the staff where the BTS is.

I immediately went to their room and remove my cap because it really hurts.

They are currently practicing their new song, Not Today.

Suga is the first one who notices me.

He went near me,"What are you doing here?! You should be in the hospital!" Now all of their attention is on me. I didn't mind, I looked at Taehyung.

I smiled and went near him.

"Tae-Tae, wait." I glanced at the other members. "Did the sasaeng already put in jail?" They just nodded silently.

"What are you doing here?" He said while looking directly at me.

"To check on you." I said and smiled. The other members are just looking at us like we were some kind of movie. I even saw J-hope oppa eating popcorn. Eh?

"Why?" He asked.

"What do you mean 'Why?'. But uhm, you visited me, right? You were worried, right?" I said desperately.

"No." He said nonchalantly.

I was taken aback, "Oh come on. I know you were just angry at me because of what I said before."

I smiled widely when he held both of my hands and stared in my eyes,"I want you to stop loving me. The friendship we had, is already ruined. Now please, I'm begging.. Irene is the only one I have now." My smile vanished in an instant. I bit my lip to prevent myself from crying.

"We're not yet over. Our friendship is not yet over, Taehyung. What are you talking about?"

"It is. The feelings you had, ruined it. The day you kept on destroying my relationship with Irene, you ruined it already." He was about to let go of my hands but I held it tightly.

"But.." I said

"I didn't asked you to save me, either." My tears automatically fell.

"V, stop it. You're crossing the line." Jimin Interrupted.

"I'm saying the t-truth T-taehyung," I sobbed.

"Let go now, Min-young." He said to me in a soothing voice. I just cried a little more.

"I'm sorry for falling for you. If there was any way I could have prevented this, I would have done it." I finally let his hand free.

"Fine. I'll try to stop this feelings. But please, can we go back from what we had before?"

"I'm sorry," He said while looking away.

And then I knew, the worst thing to hear is a sorry without any explanation.

"Taehyung, look at me. Just this question. Did I matter to you?" He looked at me.

My head hurts like hell. It's like there's someone hammering it. But the pain is nothing on what my heart feels right now. But I still faced him.

"One last time, and I'll go. What matters the most? Is it our friendship, or Irene?" I stared at him.

"Irene." He answered without even thinking.

I just nodded slowly," Arraseo, Just know that I loved you with all this fucked up piece of shit heart." I turned my back at him. I saw Suga  looking at me sympathetically.

"Suga oppa, can you take me back to the hospital?" I smiled. He just nodded and held me for support.

We were about to go out of the room when everything went blank.