Dear emotions and society

Twenty-one

I didn't want to acknowledge your apology

Or your explanation

Just so I had a reason to hate you

But I gave in.

You could have stabbed me in the back

Literally or not

But I would still forgive you

Because of those god damn eyes.

And that smile that I sadly can never remember

And the laugh that brought me to heaven

That I can never remember either

I wonder why

Maybe they are just too good of things for me to remember.

All I can remember is the way your smile lit up my world

And how your laugh cured my headaches.

The world is dark now

The headaches are worsening

I'm screaming, my throat hurts

But you calmly walk away

And i'm still screaming because

It doesn't matter if I lose my voice

No one ever heard it anyway.