Dear emotions and society

Thirty-one

"What are you so afraid of?"

I'm afraid one day, i'll fall in love with the sunset and its rainbow

And that i'll think to myself

This is a reason to not kill myself

I'm afraid i'll think of not being able to see my nephews and nieces graduate

That i'll think to myself, this is a reason to not kill myself

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

I fell in love, not with the sunset, but with another human.

And now, i'm thinking to myself, this is a reason to not kill myself

Cause I wanna see him live and laugh, I wanna see him graduate college

I wanna see him to overcome the world

Now I don't want to die because if i'm dead, there isn't any seeing him again.

There won't be anymore confusion, there won't be any annoying him.

There won't be anymore of my blushing, any of his laughing and teasing.

No more smiling

I want to see my best friend graduate medical school

But i'm being so selfish, they'd be better off without me, dang it.

I want to graduate

I want to leave this world

But they've became my anchor.

Why can't you let go, why can't I?

So i'm sorry about just dying. As you probably know, school started. I have the weight of all gt classes and two high school credits on my shoulders(Totally not dying) There's just too much to keep up with.

I'm terrible.