Dear emotions and society

Twenty-three

I feel like I annoy people by being like this.

Constantly depressed

Moody

Upset

And I'm so very sorry.

No one wants a friend that can't smile.

No one wants a friend whose laugh is forced.

No one needs a friend who constantly needs a hug.

No one needs a friend who cries over the smallest of things.

And I'm so very sorry.

I know I sadden all of you

But it's so freaking hard

To fake this smile

Or laugh a laugh that's not mine

And I'm so very sorry.

I break down

Over and over

The same old reasons.

Every lunch

Every period

Every day, it's worse

The thoughts pile up.

Every day it's proved again and again

I'm worthless.

And I'm so very sorry

That I can't be happy

That I can't stop

I'm so very sorry

I know I worry you

But I'm not worth it

Don't waste your hugs

Or your fake love

I'm sorry.

I can't be strong like you want me to be.