Dear emotions and society

Twenty-eight

Sitting here, drinking old coffee, reading through our messages

"Do you know how much I love you?"

Did I know?

Was it all just a lie?

Oh god, please, I need to know.

Have I felt being loved?

Was it just nothing?

Were we just nothing?

Just summer love?

Was it even that? Were we just the stars up above?

Look at us from different angles.

One angle, love

From the second angle, does it look like someone trying to help another?

What did we look like from all the angles?

What do we look like now?

What are we now?

As we struggle to keep this friendship alive

We kill ourselves as we use our life source to keep this alive.

Living like this, we'll end up dead.

You want to give up, I can tell.

I want to give up, I want you to be happy.

No one knew of us, they'd say it's stupid.

Can't ask for an opinion

Can't ask for help, can't vent

It never mattered with you

It could be silent or loud.

Rained the whole day, yet you made the stars come out every night.

Even if they didn't shine as bright.

Were we just summer love?

Did we disconnect because of school or was it because of the fight?

Am I the only one still disconnected?

Am I the only one who's still scarred from that night?

Do you even know how hard I cried?

You brought back the way I had felt inside for a year

The stars, where are they? I haven't seen them in a year.

The silence is deadly

Put the volume down, my head hurts.

We were just the stars up above, weren't we?

Nowhere to be found, clouded forever.

Till the day you decide to put us back together.

We don't have to be just the stars.