My Hustle and Lover: COMPLETED ✅

Chapter 52

August POV

"So what's is going to be Raines." Dis clown ass nigga Officer Taylor asked.

I been in dis room for ate least 2 hours and haven't said a word. But my mind has been going.

From Samir to Trish even my niggas for some reason I just couldn't shake dis feelin' I was gettin'.

We family I know they wouldn't turn their backs on me , at least I'm prayin' they don't.

I thought about my kids and how they prolly wonderin' where they mama and daddy at. Taylor told me a while ago dat a couple Officers picked them up from school so I guess they here which made da pain in my chest get worst.

I neva meant for shit to go dis far , I neva wanted my kids inna place like dis or to have my lady bein' questioned with all da cops in her face.

I tried to keep her away from dis shit but it's like da deeper shit got da more I pulled her in without even realizing it.

I love you August but I don't know how much more of this I can take. I have my kids to think about.

Da words on dat note she left just kept playin' in my head.

She right.

My heart is so heavy right now. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes as I dropped my head. Not having the strength to hold it up any longer.

I been holding it up my whole life. Always keeping my chest out like shit ain't bother me but I don't think I could do it anymore. I knew from da beginning I was gonna end up in one of two places being in dis life.

Jail or Hell.

But I neva thought I would have a family to think bout. It's always been just me and my boys and I knew they was down for dis shit.

They basically signed up for dis shit but not my baybeh or Trish. Dis wasn't their choice , it was forced on them.

No matter how careful we thought we were we should've knew betta. I should've knew betta.

Rule # 1. Show no love , love will get you killed.

It's time for me to make a choice no matter how much it's gonna hurt or how much my lady gonna hate me , I gotta do it.

I can't be selfish , making like I'm untouchable.

I can be touched.

I've been showed dat many times ova da past couple years but dis time is da real eye opener.

Not being shot , or losing Mel , &'d even being knocked down for two years. Dis right here it's what's gonna change me.

Seeing Samir's as da cuffs were bein' squeezed on her wrist. She looked helpless, her eyes pleaded for me to do something but I couldn't.

Dis was my fault and now I gotta be a man and own up to my mistake.

I can't keep her in dis shit , I can't put my baybehs thru dis. I'll rather them lose their daddy than their whole family.

Mel mane I wish I could've made you proud and did da things you thought I could do. You always seen more in me than anyone has ever had. I hope you ain't disappointed in yo boy. I tried I swear I did , it just wasn't good enough. Watch ova my family for me doe cuz imma be gone for a lul minute. I need you to do dat for me. I pray dat yo soul rest forever big bro , tell my pops I said whussup and I wish we could've had more time together.