Why is it so hard?... (One direction fan fiction)

chapter 17: f*** you Styles!

no no this cant be true. I'm not reading this! i thought to myself

"you made this! its fake!, you bitch! you fucking bitch! you cant leave me alone can you?!" i scream at jade. as i swing my arm at her i feel a stronger arm grab me and pull me away.

"leave it Lily shes not worth it" i hear a voice in my ear as i try to catch my breath back. i turn around to see kade holding me back. i shake out of his group and look around the room at all the faces staring at me or whispering to each other but still looking at me.

"so you all knew about it." i say as i look round the room at all the guilty faces "yet you let HER be the one to tell me? i thought you were my friends" i spit

"we didn't want to hurt you on your birthday Lily and we thought you already knew as it was all over twitter this morning" Chloe says as she was the only one brave enough to say something to me while i was in this mood. I'm never like this. i don't confront people, have arguments or even really get involved in arguments but that bitch pushed me too far today. 

"well thank you so for ruining my birthday but i hope it made your day to embarrass me in front of all my friends." i tell Jade as she has a smug smile on her face still. "kimia tell miss that i wont be in lesson. say I'm ill or something. i need to go phone some people" i tell her as i grab my bag and walk out.

"lily-"

"save it i don't want to be around that thing" i tell kimia referring to jade

as soon as i step out the pod i let my tears fall down and i don't care what i look like anymore. why should i? i have no one to impress anymore as my boyfriends cheated on me.

i head to the toilets and lock the door behind me so no one will come in. i pull my phone out and go on to twitter to make sure that it was true and not to my surprise it is. the articles been retweeted and I've been tagged in it at least 1000 times. that did it after loosing my temper with Jade i was ready for an argument with Harry. i harshly scrolled threw my phone to find Harry's number and phone it. it kept ringing and ringing but there was no answer. HA pussy too scared to answer his phone.thought to myself.

i called Zayn,liam,Niall no one would answer. i tried Louis not expecting him to answer either. as i was about to hang up a heard a female voice. 

"hello? Lou is that you?"

"yeah. Louis left his phone in make up. whats up?"

"lou pleases don't act like you don't know why I'm phoning I've tried all he boys no ones answering. wheres Harry i need to talk, more like shout at him" i let out a weak laugh even though it kills me.

"Lily i have no idea what your going on about. whats that Harry done"

"he cheated Lou...cheated on me the night before my birthday as well Lou. how could he do that." i sobb to her quietly

i hear Lou gasp and then i here her walking" Lily I'm so sorry, i don't know what to say. ill be home in a couple of days just say strong...i can see harry the other end of the corridor do you still want to talk to him? she ask. i wipe my eyes take a deep breath and nod but then remember were on the phone.

" y-yes" i stutter out 

"OK...HARRY COME HERE NOW" i pull the phone away from my ear as she shout to the twat. but i could hear angry in her shout as well. i hear muffled talking between Lou and harry.

"Lily's on the phone, i know what you've done harry and ill talk to you later about it but you owe my cousin an explanation" 

"fine fine" 

breath lily breath "hello" says the familiar voice that use to comfort me but now makes me shudder. everything i thought i was going to say to him. i had it all planned everything. but now ive heard his voice i don't know what to say. I've forgotten everything.

"Lily are you there?" 

"i Hate you Harry styles. Fuck you" i shout as the tears roll down my face. and end the call before he can say anything back to me.

angry takes over my body as i throw my phone across the room and dramatically slide down the back of the door and huddle up into a ball. after crying for about 10 minutes i drag myself off of the floor and quickly wash my face over and remove the smudged make up off my face. I'm tempted to reply it all as i have makeup in my bag but i  know that i will cry again today so there's no point.  i pick up my bag and walk out the toilet to be met by the one and only bitch that is Jade Jacobs. 

"speak your beloved Harry" shes basically laughs as she says it

i ignore and walk past her only for her to follow me

"i told you this was happen... we all did even you supposed best friends kimia, chloe and jasmine all placed bets saying that he would cheat on you before he comes back from tour... i should thank you really i think i had atleast £50 out of foolishness"

that did it i couldn't take her smug comments any longer. i stopped where i was and walked up to her face to face. 

" its taking everything in me to not slap you but a scumbag like you isnt worth getting kicked out of collage for. maybe you should try keeping for mouth shut for a change. because open your eyes hunny no one likes you just no ones has the guts to say it to your fucking face. so do us all a favour and fuck off" i spit and turn around and walk away. i dont think she was expecting me to say anything and im glad that i verbally slapped her. feeling pretty proud for sticking up for myself. but it doesn't stop the pain I'm feeling from Harry's betrayal