Why is it so hard?... (One direction fan fiction)

chapter 14: lets hope your right.

(Hollys changed to Lily)

sorry its been so long i didn't think anyone was reading this anymore so i was going to give up but then i thought There's  no point giving up so i might as well carry on.

____________________________________________

recap:

"ill walk you to the the car" Kade say and we walk out to the car.

when i get to the car the paparazzi are all round us. I'm starting to get really annoyed with all this press and i think its starting to show.i get in the car smile as Kade walks back to school as we drive off.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lily's P.O.V

once we couldn't see the school anymore i let out a deep breath and buried my head into my hands. i felt Harry's hand come across and rest on my thigh.

"babe, what happened, tell me i might be able to help." He asks concerned

i take a deep breath and start telling everything from when i walked into school, what jade said, how kade had stuck up for me, the phone call and how there probably going to be a picture of me and kade in the papers tomorrow. i told Harry about mine and Kades past and he seemed to tense up a bit when i mentions how he broke my heart. Harry listened to everything i was saying until i was finished.

"okay so you got a call from and unknown number telling you to stay away from your friends or a picture of you and Kade you get sent to the press?" i nodded as he came to terms with the facts of what had happened.

"and was that Kade who just walked you to the car?"

"yes, and hes the one who the paparazzi have a picture of me hugging round the back of the school?" i say as i fiddle around with my hands avoiding eye contact with harry.

"do you still have feelings for him" harry says sounding a bit annoyed

"course i don't! as a friend yes! but nothing else why would you think that?!" i say lightly raising my voice but not meaning too.

"sorry Lils i just had to ask, i mean you told me he broke your heart and now you were round the back of school hugging i just wanted to make sure that i wasn't missing anything." he said sympathetically.

i leaned over and placed my hand on his thigh. and told him" Harry, i promise i have no feelings for Kade, i like you so much. that i think i might even love you. i know its only been a couple of days but i cant imagine going back to how much life was before i met you. i wouldn't change it for the world."

"i know Lil's i love you too" he leans over and quickly gives me a peck on the lips "im sorry for everything thats happened today. lets go back to the bus and just chill."

as we pull into the back of the arena i could see there was about 20 fans waiting outside the gates.

"babe you go and get on the bus if you want i think i should sign some things they've been waiting here ages."

no, i stay with you i been without you long enough today" i tell harry as we get out the car.

he grabs my hand and walked me over to were all the fans were waiting for the boys. i held onto Harry's hand tight. even though there wasn't many fans i still wanted to make sure i was close to Harry.

once harry had sign something for all the girls waiting we headed back to the bus. 

"wait harry, before we get on the bus i can i ask you something?" 

he nodded signalling for me to carry on. "well today this girl called jade who does really like me said that when you go on tour you'll probably forget about me and find someone new" by the end i was nearly crying. trying to hold back my tears. i could feel myself about to break down. 

it went silent for a couple of seconds it felt as if even the fans had fallen silent. for a split second it felt like me and harry were the only people on the earth.

he let out a deep breath then said what he needed to say.

Harrys P.O.V 

i let out a deep breath and took Lily's face in my hands, as she couldn't even look at me in the eye.

" Lils i would never do that too you. i don't say this about just any girl trust me. since the minute i met you i knew you were someone special. i knew that you were the one i wanted to spend my life with. and i know most people would say. oh your young you wouldn't know what love is. but with you i can tell your my love. i cant stand seeing you upset and if i even think about you not being mine it makes me want to cry. i love you Lily Teasdale and i wouldn't ever hurt you." i see a tear roll down her face as i tell her everything from my heart. i quickly remove the tear with my thumb and crash my lips into hers.

i pull out the kiss and rest my head on her forehead.  

"i love you too harry styles" escapes her lips as she slowly opens her eyes.

"come on babe, let go grab a film put it on and fall asleep on the back of the bus?"

" that sounds like a plan"  

i take her hand and lead her onto the bus. i could tell the boys were all about to say something but i gave them a smile to say 'not right now' and they left it.

_________________________________________________

again sorry for taking so long to update, and the next couple of chapters might not too great as there's gonna be fillers so just bear with me thank you please keep voting and commenting means a lot :) xxx