VIII

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by xxrosexgoldxx

by xxrosexgoldxx

Maddie's POV

I sit with Kenzie and her friends at lunch. Kalani and Paige come with me. They thought that I never noticed how nice they were to people, but i always did. i wished I could be like them. Have enough courage to not be mean with Jacob, but to help the people that he hurts. I wish i could say sorry to all of them, but i can't. It would be impossible. I could try, but people wouldn't think i was actually being genuine.

"Mads, what's wrong. You look like you have a lot on your mind." Kenzie says looking over at e. For the first time she looks as if she's actually caring for me, but i guess she's done that before. I've been so rude to her, she stopped caring for me. I hate it.

"I do. I wish that I could say sorry to everyone that I hurt. It's just, i know they wouldn't forgive me."

"They will Maddie. You just have to tell them what you told me, and explain it."

"I know, but it's hard to tell everyone. There is too many people that i hurt."

"We have an assembly coming up, you could ask to talk about it there."

"I don't think i can do that. I'll get in trouble. I was a bully."

"Come with me." She says standing up. "We'll be back later guys" We grab our lunch trays and dump them at the garbage can. Kenzie takes me to where she and her friends stand before school, the office building.

"Kenzie, no. Stop."

She stops and faces me, "From the beginning of the school year, i've gone to the counselor every day. I talked to her about mom and dad never being home. I talked to her about you always off doing your own thing. I've talked to her about my problems and I sis it in middle school too with that counselor. It's better to talk about it with them to leave it alone. She'll help you, you can trust her. I do."

"Kenz, i had no idea."

"It's no biggie. It helps. C'mon."

We walk down the hallway to the counselor's office, Mrs.Miller. I really don't want to do this, but i won't get out of it.

"Mackenzie, you're earlier than usual and you brought your sister."

"Yea. Hi Mrs.Miller."

"Hi. Maddie, i've heard so much about you. What can I help you girls with today?"

"C'mon Maddie. You can do it." Kenz says whispering

"Ok, I just broke up with my boyfriend."

"I think this is an out of school thing girls."

"No, it's more than that. You see, I feel bad for other kids because in that relationship i was pressured to be mean to them. It's just been on my mind that I want to apologize to them, but i don't know how i can do that because i hurt a lot of people. I don't want them to be scared of me. I want to be a good person. I hate myself for being so rude and mean for years to not only the people at school, but to my own sister."

"Well, I think i have an idea that will help, but i'm sure Mackenzie has already told you. She's a smart girl and we talked about this. All I can do is give you speaking time at the next assembly, which happens to be the bullying assembly.

A/N

Hey guys, so you know that schedule that I said i would post on Sundays. Yeah, that's donzo. Also sorry for not many uploads, i has NaNoWriMo at school which is National Novel Writing Month (supposed to be in November but we did it in February due to scheduling issues). I also went on vacation with my family this past weekend so it was hard to write with bad wifi and i want this book to be good so i don't want everything i wrote in a day to be deleted because it didn't save. I'm on spring break now so i will probably upload at least 3 chapters before next Sunday. I'll try to post at least once a week, but that might not happen. I love all the feedback on the story and how many people are commenting that they want more because they love the storyline. I'll proably post the next chapter today also and if not it WILL be up tomorrow.

Love you guys <3

Also, if you want a head up for the next chapter. It'll be a couple weeks in advance. A lot of things are in Maddie's perspective but the one after the next will not be so look out for that.