Thoughts Of My Silent Mind

Ugh

Being shipped with your ex by your friends,is no fun. In fact,it sucks. Because you think of all the good times,and all the bad times. And it kills you. Trust me,I know. Because some of my friends,*cough cough*,ship me with my ex. And it makes me constantly think of her,and how good we were together. It kills me. Because every time I move on,and become stable,she hits me with "I still love you," or "I still like you."It literally fucks up everything. I can't think straight. I become distant. And it messes up my whole point of view on things. It doesn't help when your in band,*cough cough*,and your being told that you and your ex is being shipped together. I don't understand her. When she has me,she seems not to want me. When she doesn't have me,she never seems happy. I still care,and I always will. She still owns apart of me. And I believe she knows that. I believe she knows that she still owns me. And it sucks. Because loving her,and a little part of me hating her,kills me.... UGH