Thoughts Of My Silent Mind

Gone..

Here I sit. Right now. With my bother. On his bed.. Listening to music.. but I can't help.. this was my grandmothers room. She lived with us for several years. And now she's..gone. It hurts. I loved her so.. I never got the chance to say goodbye. For that Tuesday,February 7th,2017.. I was at school. I was at lunch. It was a good day. I had gotten my trumpet only minutes before I was called to sign out. My heart dropped. I'm usually only signed out if something bad had happened.. I despise my middle school parking lot. For it was where I learned of my grandmothers death. For a long while,I didn't even enter the room. But then came the viewing.. I had decided to put my necklace in the casket with her. Just so she would have me with her. I couldn't stay. I cried at the sight of her. Just laying there.. I couldn't take it.. I had my mother there. My hand in hers. Gripping tightly. I needed her there. As I look back,and fight the tears that threaten to spill.. because she's gone..