The Boys

It's not fine

Jung's house

Jessica sat on the chair in front of her study desk. She opened the envelope that given by Yoong.

Dear Sooyeon,

Whenever you read this letter I'm not at Seoul anymore and not there for you as always. I moved to other country with my broken heart and search for new me. I really not imagine that our relationship will be this short. You knew how much I love you and you knew what you mean to me because you're my first love but I'm really thankful that I experienced your love even for a really short time. I enjoyed your companion a lot when we're together. I'm not regret for being your boyfriend. I really shocked that you said we're broke up that night because of that little thing. When Yul showed me that video, I really hope that at least only you'll trust me and you're my last hope who put a trust to me but I'm wrong, really wrong. No one was at my side and you didn't even stop Yul when he almost killing me. But it is ok, it not your fault and if others in your shoes, they also behave like that. Sooyeon-ah, thank you for accepting me as your boyfriend and that night was really meaningful to me. It was when I start the new thing in my life and I'll remember it until the very end. I'm apologized for not giving you proper happiness and everything that you deserve to get from me. Until the moment I wrote this letter, I really can't get over you and I really miss you. No one night that I didn't stare at your picture. I miss your laugh, your giggles, your icy antics, your glare, your warmth and everything about you and I know I can't feel it anymore. I want to see you before I go but I know you hate me a lot and I can't stand to see you angry at me and I don't want you to hate me more. That night was enough for me to bear and I don't want to add it again. So I choose to leave without none of you know until this letter come to tell everything. I admit that I really hurt because I love you more than you know. We were always together and I can't even imagine forgetting you. I'm leaving for everyone happiness, for my dongsaengs and for you. Please live your life well, look for a good man that you deserve and deserve to have you. Go after your dream and make your mom and dad happy. Thanks to them for really nice to me and also your little sister, tell her to take care of Yoong and study hard. I know you'll be over me and I hope I can be over you. Whenever you saw me one day, I hope that you'll remember me and say that I'm the one who once love you. We might find our place in the world someday but at least I gotta go my own way. I miss the time that we almost shared, I miss the love that was almost there and I miss the times that we used to kiss at least in my dreams. I miss how happy I was with you Sooyeon-ah and I'm really hoping that you miss me too. I never knew I could hurt like this and everyday life goes on like 'I wish I could talk to you for a while. I miss you but I try not to cry. I hope you feel so fine Sooyeon-ah. That's all I wanna say. See you when I see you again

With love,

Kim Taeyeon.

Jessica tears streaming down her cheeks and she cried hard after she read the letter. Then she open another envelope and she found that the envelope contain the sketched of her and Taeyeon's picture at the night that Taeyeon propose her. She cried harder on it. She threw away her books on the table and she kneeled at the floor.

Krystal who study at her room quickly ran to her sister's when she heard the chaos. Luckily their parents not at home that time. When she opened the door she saw her sister kneeled in front of the sketched picture of her and Taeyeon. She quickly goes to Jessica and hugging her. She rubbed the crying girls back to sooth her.

"Unnie, please don't cry" Krystal cooed

"He leaved me Krys. He leaved me forever" Jessica cried in Krystal arm

"Unnie, he didn't mean to leave you. He had his own reason why he goes. You knew how much he loved you. He'll come back for you unnie"

"He'll not come back for me Krys. He even said that I should look for other man. I lost him. I lost Kim Taeyeon" Krystal lost words. She knew it was her sister fault for saying they broke up that night. She helped her unnie to go to the bed.

"Unnie, I think you need something for you to calm yourself" Krystal stroke her sister hair

"No Krys, nothing can make me calm beside him. I need him now but I'm fool, I even throw away his belongings" Jessica said between her sobs

"No unnie, the things that you threw away was with me. Mom saw it at trash bin and she picked it up and gave to me. It was in my room. I'll get it" Krystal said and went to her room. Then she came back with a box of Taeyeon belongings that Jessica threw away few days ago.

Jessica looked for Taeyeon's favourite jacket and she hugged it. She cried again after smell the guys scent at the jacket. She admit that she miss that guy a lot. Inside the box there were Taeyeon's two pair jackets, his shirts that Jessica took away when she go to Taeyeon house, Taeyeon baseball jerseys, his colouring books, his pea pillow, few frame of his picture and Taeyeon favourite cap that written Jessica name on it that he wore whenever he go.