"honestly i think we both look fine enough to go to a restaurant," tyler said, speeding. i looked at him and i couldn't control my emotions.
"what the hell," i said, tyler looked over at me and slowed the car down and parked at the side of the road. he looked down at his hand and i looked down with him. his hands were shaking , he put them up to his eyes and he started to cry.
"i don't know what im doing anymore, okay! you wanted to die and leave me here. you are dying and there's nothing i can do about it," he quickly removed his hands from his eyes and punched the steering a couple of times- he then looked up at me with rosy red cheeks. i leaned over.
"you can't do anything."
"is that really okay though?"
"anything's okay, as long as i'm with you." tyler put his hands back over his eyes and wiped his tears away. i could tell he didn't know how to handle this and that was okay. he removed his hands away from his eyes and for the first time today he smiled and his cheeks got redder. he put both of his hands on the steering wheel and laughed, not the 'oh hey im havin a wonderful life' kind of laugh it was more of a uncomfortable laugh.
a few minutes later we arrived at the mc donalds parking lot.
by then the sun had set and rain was batting against the roof of the car. tyler looked outside and looked at me with my short sleeved shirt and he looked back at his hoodie.
"here," he took off his sweater and gave it to me. i looked at tyler and he nodded his head. i pulled it over my head and over my cannula. the sweater smelled like men cologne, i couldn't describe the scent all i can say is that it smelled nice and pleasant. i finally pulled it down all the way and left the hood over my head. inside the hoodie it was warm and soft- there was nothing to it really. just a plain black hoodie. i felt like this was the second part in becoming.. a thing with him. not really a friend but not really a lover. the warm feeling felt nice against my skin and i wanted to hide in the sweatshirt forever.
"t-thanks," i said, leaving my head to keep thinking about him and the hoodie, i pulled the sleeves over my hands. i looked over at the drivers seat and frowned. tyler was already outside and walking towards my door. he looked at me inside the car and attempted to open the door. he tried a few more times and knocked on the windows, after knocking twice he realised i knew he was there was and i was watching him. he ran his hand through his brown fluffy hair and laughed and twirled in the parking lot.
i unlocked the door and opened it, tyler backed up and laughed.
"that was supposed to be romantic as fuck but, y'know," he looked at me and sighed. i grabbed his hand and smiled and got close to his face.
y'know when you find the person that you were made for and it feels like that empty space inside of you had been filled with stars? it's like your whole world has finally lit up. it's like you finally have a purpose.
"it's plenty perfect," i said, i could feel his breath against my cheeks and it felt warm and nice. for the first time in a while i felt alive.
and i wanted to stay that way.
tyler grabbed my hand and i grabbed my oxygen tank and tyler dragged me into the fast food kingdom.
the man at the counter looked at us holding hands and grinned.
"what would you like today?" he said, he didn't sound friendly and he also didn't sound threatening. tyler looked over at me and smiled.
