tylers pov*
2 weeks later*
i started today with a cup of coffee and my book. the book was how to stop a friend from doing something they'll regret.
it was too late for that.
i set the book down on my new black table in the kitchen and looked out the window. the birds chirped, and they're song echoed in my head.
i got up, and decided to get ready for the day.
i put on my nice black button up shirt with black pants i matched it with my black jeans and floral vans. i looked in the mirror and stared at my eyes. my bags were dark and noticeable and i glanced away. i looked at my hair and then decided that my hair is better off messy.
i walked to the front door and glanced down at the floor.
josh's shoes were already gaining dust and i had to looked away. i grabbed my keys and opened the door. i closed it and locked it and walked down the apartment stairs into the parking lot.
"tyler?" a female voice quietly said from a distance. i turned around and a young blonde girl cane running towards me, she had on a pastel blue dress that showed off her curves nicely.
but who cared about what was nice anymore.
"hey... how are you?" she had concern in her voice and honestly i would be concerned too. i've been living off coffee for the past 2 weeks. after seeing jo- him hang like that- it was awful and made me sick.
"i'm fine. how are you?" i made my words sharp and to the point, but jenna got closer, she laid her hand on mine and closed her eye.
"i'm so-so sorr-"
"yeah well everyones fucking sorry, but it doesn't mean anything. it's just two words that used to mean something but now just means closure for some people! and im over it. you're not sorry, so don't even fucking try." i ran away to my car and opened the door slamming it behind me. i put both of my hands on the steering wheel and hit my head.
1...2...3...4...5...6...7..8 i stopped and realised that wasn't going to do anything.
josh was gone and it was all my fault.
i could've gone up there and helped him get down. when it happened i could've gotten up and helped him down instead of calling an ambulance that took too long to save him. i could've ran faster and stopped him. i could've been driving faster and not stopped the car when he had asked.
"stupid!" i yelled. "it's all my fault," my voice cracked in between sobs and i couldn't control what i was feeling. i tried going to a therapist, i tried to hurt myself to try and feel alive. but the same thing happened continuously, "it's not your fault," and blood.
i took deep breathes and started the car.
JOSH DUN.
2000-2017
'a boy full of hopes & dreams.'
will forever be missed.
"im sorry, i could've done something. it's all my fault." i bent down on my knees on the dirt and put my hands on my eyes. i felt two hands grab onto my shoulder and i knew whose hands they were.
"there was nothing you could do," i turned around and i saw him. his face was emotionless and his body color was yellow.
"i could've stopped you," i said, turning around.
"no, you couldn't of done anything. what happened- happened. there was nothing that you couldv'e done to stop me. just like me with my dad. he would've done it sometime. you made me happy when i was still alive- that's all that mattered."
"bu-but."
"goodbye my love." he closes his eyes and faintly dissapeared.
"DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE," i yelled, loudly sobbing. i felt like i was waking everyone up from their deathly slumber. "I FUCKING MESSED UP. OKAY? BUT PLEAse," my voice cracked and became softer. "don't leave me alone."
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*end of fic*
tomorrow i'll write an extra thing for how it ties with the song and what happens to tyler and jenna :)) cool cool.
anyways im startin a new fic called "goner" represented of the song! socthats neat.
i love you guys and if you ever need anything and/or are struggling with anything please talk to me! my dms are always open and i'll reply!
i love you all!
stay alive frens |-/
