The Glo Up ~ Derek Luh

18

Shyanne's pov

I rushed to my dorm and shut the door behind me.
I leaned against the door as I took in deep breaths.

No one was in here. I was alone but to be honest, that's what I wanted. I wiped the tears from my face but realized it was no help since my sleeves were wet from the rain.

I groaned and pulled my shirt off.
I went to search for another shirt in my draw but I spotted the flowers Derek gave me. I sighed and took the flowers. I walked over to the trash can and dumped them in there.

I changed into some dry clothes and put my hair in a messy bun. I then laid down in my bed and stared at the ceiling.

God, I'm such an idiot.

I still can't believe he kissed me.
I still can't believe I kissed back!

I should've never went out with him. I should've just thanked him for helping me and we both would be on our separate ways.

I've never yelled at anyone like that in my life. It's just... he pushed me to the edge.

He has hurt me so many ways that were repeated everyday. But for him to just kiss me like that, out of no where, it made me break down. The truth is I felt... happy.
And I fucking kissed back.
I hate myself. I really hate myself.

I hate myself because I liked it.

Why did I like it? He hurt me. I cut because of him. I almost took my own life... and I like the fact that he kissed me? I am probably- no I am the dumbest bitch alive.

The door opened and laughter filled the room. I sit up and see Maggie with Sam. His hands were on his waist.

"Oh! Shy, I didn't know you were gonna be back so soon." She pushed Sam's hands off her.
I gave her a quizzical look.
"Maggie what's going on?" I asked her.

"What happened to you? Were you crying? Why were you crying?" She ignored my question and walked up to me. She sat on my bed and stared at my face.

"Sam we can uh, hang out some other time, yeah?" She looked back at him. He just put up the peace sign and left.

"What happened?" She asked in a more serious tone.

"Derek..." I sighed. "What did he do? Did he hurt you?" She asked.
"He hurt you didn't he? Okay." She said and got up.
"What are you-"
"Metal or wood?" She asked as she held up two baseball bats.
My eyes widened and I got up and too them from her.

"Are you crazy? Metal could kill someone!" I say and she nodded.
"You're right. I'm not going to jail again. Hand me the wooden one." She stuck her hand out. I put the bats behind my back.

"Listen. He hurt me. Not physically." I said.
Maggie had a confused look on her face. "He called you a name or something?" She asked.

"He kind of kissed me and I kind of... kissed back?" I say the last part like a question. Maggie furrowed her eyebrows and gaped at me. "Are you nuts?!" She yelled. I sighed and put the bats on the floor before sitting on my bed.
"Shyanne, do you not remember what happened?"

"Of course! Of course I remember! That's why I don't know why I liked it. I fucking hate myself." I put my head in my hands.
"But what exactly happened?" She asked. I sighed and started telling her everything.