Dream A Little Dream

Chapter 11

Autumns P.O.V

As I was getting closer to Jordan's house, people where leaving his house it was Bob and 4 others socs leaving, they could hardly walk to their car,
Drunk idiots.

"Autumn? I thought we weren't meeting for another half hour?" He slurred, drunk as well.

"You drunk?" I smirked walking up to him,
"It's okay beautiful, I'm fine." As I walked into his house he grabbed my butt.
I smacked his hands off giggling,
"Aw come on baby." He asked,

I sighed in relief as I finally sat down on the couch to rest my sore feet, it's quite a long walk from the Curtis house to here.
"Babe you know what I wanna do?" He asked he had a grin on his face I could recognise anywhere... the same grin my dad wore all they years ago.

"No..no." I repeated I got up and tried to walk away from him when he grabbed my hand tightly, he threw me back on the couch and went on top of me kissing down my neck.

"NO.... JORDAN!" I screeched I used all my strength to push him off of me,

"WHAT THE FUCK?!" He shouted back, causing me to jump out of my skin and hide the hot tears running down my face.

Once I rubbed my eyes I saw a little girl aged around 3 standing at the door, she had a bear teddy on one hand,

"Are you Autumn?" She asked,
"BONNIE GO BACK TO BED!" Jordan slurred, Bonnie must be Jordan's baby sister.

I rushed out and ran back to the Curtis house, once again alone, feeling more lonely than I ever have.

Lexi doesn't believe in me and now, my boyfriend who I thought I loved was about to hurt me so much that it could've end up with me being pregnant, what a fucker!
...

I started banging on the door, Ponyboy opened it,
"Autumn are you okay?" He asked me, I hugged him crying into Pony's shoulder,

"What happened?" He asked holding me tightly slightly rocking me back and forward, I couldn't let go of him, his hugs always make me calm down and feel warm and loved.

"J.J..Jordan." I sniffled,

"Autumn?" I turned around to see Darry, Sodapop and Lexi,

"Jordan tried to rape me!" I cried, Lexi rushed over and hugged me as well then Sodapop and Darry followed.

"I'm so sorry Autumn, I should of never let you go out with a soc, I was mean and a bully tonight and I'm so sorry." Lexi said crying, which is rare since this is the first time I've ever seen her cry, and I've knew her for a long time

"Autumn what happened, Dal said he's a nice well mannered boy?" Darry asked,

"He is, but tonight he was drunk out his mind."
"I'm gonna call Alice okay, tell her to come over." Lexi went over to the phone about to dial the number for our room.

"No don't, it's late." I Argued back,
"Do I look like I give two shits? I'm calling her!" She shouted,
...

"There's no answer?! I told her to go back to the room!" Lexi panicked,

"Call Dally then doll, she might be with him." Soda said dialling in Dally's number,

"Why would Alice be with Dally?!" Lexi asked wide eyed, everyone started smirking including me, they doing the dirty deeds.

"God, I can't get that image out of my head." Lexi went pale at the thought.
....

Once Lexi called Dally she told the boys to go back to bed because she wanted to talk to me, I don't know if I should be happy that she wants to have a chat, Or be scared incase this is a telling off.

Lexi P.O.V

I sat down on the couch with Autumn and began talking.
"If I had known-"
"You didn't, I just kept it well hidden." Autumn rubbed her arms.
"But I could've helped you, could've provided mental and emotional help."
"I'm not unstable Lex... I have deep scars." She whispered.
"I mask things well which is why I connect to acting."
I didn't answer her back.
"But what really pushed me to pursue acting was the fact my parents hated it. It made me happy that I was free and my own person. And I'll do whatever it takes to keep on fighting for my dream."
I shut my eyes tightly.
"Why does it pain you so much to see me take interest in something and love it!" Autumn grasped my hands.
I stood up abruptly.

"Because I know what it's like! To love something so much and put your all into it not thinking about the fact it's soooo easy to get rejected." I wrapped my arms around me.
"Your not the only one who's good at burying secrets and scars hen."
Autumn kept still, wanting me to continue.
I looked out the window to see rain now pouring. Somewhere in the back of my mind was Alice and if she was okay.

"I've been rejected by many people and many things in my life. But through it all I had one lifeline, one saving grace. Drama!" I turned around to see Autumn in disbelief.
"I was always hooked to the acting, the characters, the stage. All of it. Obviously my parents hated it but I didn't care. Until one day I decided to risk it all. I was 14 and old enough to drop out of school and try out for theatre school. So that's what I did. I put my all into the audition and like an idiot was full of happiness and hope. But all of it got crushed into dust when the entire school humiliated me. The judges ripped my script up and my bag was stolen."
Autumn had tears in her eyes and was trying to hold them back by being strong for me.

"I couldn't go back to school so everyday I would go out and work my side jobs and pretend I was going to school. My parents knew I had wanted to drop out anyway since it was shite but I didn't because of drama. So when they found out... it seemed only fitting to them to throw me out into the world at 14 and fend for myself. They got their kicks in ... and a good few punches but after that I was on my own."
"What happened next?" A rogue tear slid down autumns pale skin.
"The streets were rough, I got into to many fights, and had to deal with so many gangs. All of it in turn made me retreat into a hollow shell and put up walls of titanium. I grew a thick spine which was the only thing that got me through all the slutty club jobs. I wasn't living just surviving. Until I got to know you guys. A sliver of the old me came through and made me think of all the stuff I went through. I couldn't let that stuff happen to you two. Slowly after you guys became my little sisters my walls started to wobble and all I really want is to fully knock them down."
Autumn got up and walked to me.
"So all this time, you were just trying to protect me from loneliness and failure because ... you had to deal with that."
I nodded , with tears in my eyes. I had never opened up to her this way.

I was pulled out of my thoughts by big sobs and two skinny arms wrapped around me.
"I'm so sorry lex. I never knew how damaged you are," Autumn cried into me. I soothed her and wrapped my arms around her.

"Whatever happens us three will get through it. Especially now with the gang caring for us. And I promise that I'll try to open up more and be more happy."
Autumn smiled weakly and replied.
"That'd be nice, but you are who you are and we love you for that, don't forget it." I chuckled and nodded.
"We'll just all stay here tonight and once alive gets here we can fill her in." I looked out at the rain.
Autumn nodded and yawned. I carried her over to the couch and wrapped her in blankets.
"I'll wait up for Alice and dal, you get some sleep. Kay?" She nodded and cuddled int other couch.

Maybe now things can be different