A New Life (Nash Grier fanfiction)

Chapter 14

AUTUMNS POV..

Here, Matt and I stand in front of Nash with fear in our eyes. "Come on lets all go sit outside at a bench" I say. I walk out and they follow. We sit at a bench. I sit across from Nash and Matt sits on the end of the table by himself. But it was a little table. I grab Nash's hands. "Okay so Nash.. you know how the other day we didn't talk for a while."  I say nervously. "Yeah what about it?" Nash says as if he was very confused. "Well, that day to get my mind off you, me and Matt hung out at the park. We were sitting together. And we just....." I say with a shaky quiet voice. "You what?" Nash says quietly. ".. We kissed. It was about ten seconds long but then I pulled back and said I couldn't do it because of you." I say looking down with tears streaming down my face. ".. What? Autumn how could you?" Nash says with a broken look on his face as if his heart had just shattered. Suddenly the sadness in his eyes turned to fire as he whipped his head over and looked at Matt. "MATT HOW COULD YOU?! THAT'S MY F*CKING GIRLFRIEND AND YOU'RE WELL AWARE OF THAT!! YOU THINK IT WAS JUST SOME KIND OF GAME? DO YOU THINK I WOULD DO THAT TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND?! WELL ITS NOT AND I WOULDN'T DREAM OF DISRESPECTING YOU IN THAT KIND OF WAY YOU LITTLE *SSHOLE!" Nash yells jumping up. "YOU KNOW WHAT, I HATE BOTH OF YOU! AUTUMN WE'RE OVER HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?! YOU WERE MY LIFE!! MATT AT MAGCON DON'T EVEN COME NEAR ME OR YOU'LL BE IN THE HOSPITAL GOT IT? BOTH OF YOU LOSE MY NUMBER AND NEVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN!" Nash yells getting in his car before driving away. "Now what?" Matt says with tears in his eyes. I don't respond. I just get up and run home. No ones home. I run upstairs. I start bawling as hard as I did when my parents, well aunt and uncle died. 3 hours pass and my eyes are red and puffy. "Why cant I end it all?" I say aloud. I then remember I had rope in my closet. I sit for a minute and get up. I go and grab it. I find a hook by my  glass sliding doors. I look over to see Nash through my sliding doors and through his big window sitting on his bed. He looks over at me with tears. When he sees i'm holding the rope and put it around my neck. I wave at him one last time before I start tying the rope to the hook. I get up and  I stand on the chair. His eyes widen as he realizes what i'm doing and he  runs out of his room. I pause for a moment, I look around. "Should I do this? I have to... I'm a horrible person I don't deserve this life." I say aloud starting to cry again. Right as I was about to step off the chair Nash burst through the door. He grabs scissors off my desk and quickly cuts the rope. He grabs me and carries me to my bed. We both start crying instantly while hugging each other. He gets the rest of the rope off my neck. "Baby i'm sorry.. i've been thinking and I dont wanna break up. I love you too much. I cant live without you. When I'm not  with you im missing half of me. when im not  with you its like i'm waking up to only half a blue sky, walking around with only one shoe. I'm half a man at best with half an arrow in my chest ." Nash says while hugging me. (ssh those may or may not be lyrics to a One Direction song :3)  "I love you too but I should be the one apologizing. You had every right in the world to get mad. I was so stupid. I love  you more than anything. You're my entire life and if you give me another chance I swear i'll  never ever do anything like that again" I say hugging him. He slowly pulls back. "I overreacted. Oh my god I cant believe i did that to Matt. Hes like my brother. I need to go make things right with him. Please come with?" Nash says. "He must be at home cause I saw him walking home" nash says. We go to Matts house. His parents aren't home. We decide to walk in. "Matt!" Nash yells looking around. We run up to his room. Hes laying in bed. He sits up, puffy eyed with his hair all messy and no clothes on except boxers and he has a box a tissues. "What do you want? I'm not even dressed" Matt says kinda quietly but not in a mean tone. "None of us are. We're all wrecks" Nash says looking around. it was true. My hair was all over the place and I was wearing a lace night gown and slippers. Nash was wearing boxers and a shirt and his hair was everywhere also not to mention we were all puffy eyed. "Matt I am sorry for what I said. You're like my brother. I went home and was gonna forgive you guys but I thought it wasn't effeting you guys." Nash says. "What made you change your mind?" Matt said now giving Nash his full attention. "Well.. Autumn was gonna kill herself and I happened to save her in the process." Nash says starting to cry. Suddenly Matt started getting teary eyed and soon we were all crying again. We all sat on Matts bed. "Matt you're like my brother. I see why you kissed Autumn.. I see why you like her. Shes just perfect. I cant blame you. I'm not mad and I still really wanna be you friend if you'll forgive me." Nash says. "Of course ill still be your friend and it wasn't right of me to kiss her. I know there is a girl out there for me.  I'll just have to keep searching." Matt says starting to smile. After a little while we all got to talking then we were all laughing. I decide to go home. My mom was home now so I went upstairs, got dressed, brushed my hair, and put on some eye shadow to cover my crying. i went down stairs. "Hey you're home early?" My mom says looking up from a stack of bills she wa holding. "Oh.. I came home early because i wasn't feeling well." I tell her. "Are you sure? You were fine earlier.. Autumn.. I'm your mother you can tell me anything. You know that right?" She says. "Yeah mom thats what happened." I say looking off to the side. "Autumn.. I can see you've been crying. What happened?" She says. We go sit in the living room and I burst into tears and start hugging my mom. *goes through telling my mom complete story with every single little detail*. "I hope you're not mad. I just felt like i couldn't live anymore.. I felt I am a horrible person who doesn't deserve this life" I tell my mom while crying. She was crying too. "Baby, you were put here for a reason. Everyone makes mistakes. I love you and couldn't imagine life without you. I see how much this Nash boy means to you. Please just promise me one thing." My mom says. "Whats that?" I say drying my eyes. She takes her fingers and gently lifts my face to look at her. "You'll never leave him or break his heart. Hes a good boy and hes good to you." She says while smiling. "I don't promise.. I swear." I say smiling back. We hug one more time before we both get up. "Now we wont tell Hayley or your father or grandma about this" My mom says as I nod my head in agreement. "Oh here this if for you. It came in the mail today. Its a letter from someone from Oregon?" My mom says handing me an envelope. The name read "Erica Lee" Oh my god. How could i forget. Erica was my only friend in Oregon. She had wrote me a letter. She is also very skinny, has brown straight hair, brown eyes, and freckles on her nose. We both didn't like the popular girls and she is abused at home. I open the letter:

" Dear Autumn, 

I miss you so much. I have thought about gving my life up 3 times this month. The bullying is getting worse and i have no friends since you left :( I don't know how much more I can take. The abuse is getting worse. It used to only be my parents but now its my 18 year old brother too. I need help. I wish I could come live with you :( ugh fml. I really really need someone. Please just write me back so I have a reason to keep going. 

Your friend, Erica. "

Wow. I can't believe shes getting bullied now too and the abuse is getting worse. I should ask my mom if she can come live with me. But im going to Magcon for three months. "Hey are they still coming for dinner tonight?" My mom asks from the kitchen. "Oh I totally forgot!! Let me ask" I yell grabbing my phone. 

Me: hey my mom wants to know if you guys are still coming tonight for dinner

Nash: Well well well. You think you're still going to Magcon with me? Jk of course (: I'll see you in a little. Is it safe to say I love you? 

Me: Of course. (: Love you baes <3

Nash: Im glad things are back to the way they were. Love you too (: <33

"Yes mom, i need to go call Erica. Im going to my room" I say to my mom running upstairs. "Okay get cleaned up for dinner too, we're having shehpards pie and grandmas homemade chocolate cake and ice cream for dessert." My mom says while slicing vegetables. I go upstairs and throw away all of the rope. I throw away all of the used tissues. I make my bed and put my dirty clothes in the laundry. I put the scissors away. I picked up my back pack. "Oh yeah and dress nice!! We wanna make a good impression" My mom yells up the stairs. I decide to put on a pale pink dress that goes right past my knees. (see image on side) and put my hair in a side braid, put on some eye shadow and mascara and some white flats. I also put on a necklace that i bought at the mall. I had it custom made and it said "Autumn&Nash" I also made Nash one but i'm giving it to him tonight. I put on deodorant and perfume. I decide to put on false french tip nails. "I'M HOME!!" I hear Hayley yells as she runs up the stairs. She runs into my room. "Hey sissy whatcha all dressed up for?" She asks plopping down on my bed. "The Griers are coming over for dinner tonight and mom said we have to dress nice." I say to her while touching up my hair. "Ooh I need to go get dressed!!" She yells running out of my room. About 5 minutes later she comes back in with an outfit. "How about this?" She says as she  holds up the same dress as i'm wearing except hers is dark blue. "Here ill help you get ready" I say. I help her get on the dress. Then I brush her hair, and put in a dark blue head band and leave her hair down. She puts on black shiny flats and some light eye shadow. She then puts on some deodorant and perfume and I paint her nails white. "What do you think?" She asks looking in the mirror. "I like it we look good" I say laughing. She laughs too and goes to her own room. Its 5:40 so they shuld be coming in 5 minutes. Now all we do is wait..

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Woah so I bet you guys got scared on this one! .o. Lol jk but I was trying to make it realistic and not just so fantasy like they have a perfect relationship cause people obviously don't have complete perfect relationships. Lol